I’m Tired of BV😭
I honestly don’t even know how to write this without crying. 😭
I’ve been dealing with BV for 9 years, and I am completely exhausted. It feels like I’ve spent years fighting something that refuses to leave me alone.
I’ve taken antibiotics. I’ve tried probiotics. I’ve completely changed the way I eat. I’ve cut down on sugar and processed foods and tried to take better care of my body. I’ve researched everything I possibly can and tried so many different things because I just desperately want to feel normal again.
But I’m still here.
The discharge and the smell are still affecting me, and mentally I’m struggling so badly. I’m constantly thinking about whether I smell, whether someone else can notice, whether I’m going to have another flare-up. It has affected my confidence, my relationships, my intimacy and the way I see myself.
And living in Africa makes this even harder. A lot of the treatments, probiotics, supplements and products I see people talking about in this group are extremely difficult to find where I live, or they are very expensive and have to be shipped from somewhere else. Sometimes I feel like I’m fighting this with one hand tied behind my back.
I recently ordered NAC, black seed oil, oregano oil and L. crispatus because I’m desperate for something that might finally help. But honestly, I’m overwhelmed. I don’t know what is actually worth trying anymore, and I’m scared of wasting more money and hurting myself with things that don’t work.
I’m tired. I’m genuinely, deeply tired. 😭
Nine years is a long time to live with something like this. I just want to wake up one day and not think about BV. I want to feel comfortable in my own body. I want to stop being afraid of the smell and discharge. I want my life back.
If anyone here has experienced BV that never completely went away, especially for many years, please tell me what finally helped you. What tests did you have? What did your doctor discover? What treatment worked? Did you find anything that helped maintain a healthy vaginal microbiome?
Please, I’m really asking for help. I don’t need judgment or comments telling me that I’m doing something wrong. I need people who understand and can give me some hope. ❤️
I’m so tired of fighting this alone. 😭