I may come out eventually but thats not today. I dont want him to think i never loved him. Although i guess thats partially true but i loved him as much as i could love a man. Idk if or when the right time will come. Hes so sad and i dont wanna make it worse. I just told him we are incompatible
Im gonna throw up i think….
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UPDATE:
Thanks for the good vibes y’all! Things went super well!
To be clear i was not professing my undying love for her. She is not 100% convinced that i actually do like her that way because things are so chaotic in my life right now shes worried that my feelings may be confusing right now but i assured her that it was indeed a real crush and that its okay if she doesn’t have those feelings back.
She told me that it’s not that she doesn’t have those feelings but she thinks it’d be a good idea to wait a month or two before doing anything about them. Thats was perfect because thats exactly what i wanted as well.
If I’m going to try something with her i wanna do it right.
I said “i like a slow burn anyway”
She smiled and said “good! Me too”
I basically asked her for permission to ask her on a date once my brain doesn’t feel like its being stretched thin and she said shed like that.
We then joked around about it for a bit until things were clear.
Yea so thats where I’m at. Nothing is changing yet and i wouldn’t want it any other way.
This conversation has only reinforced my trust in her.
I am also extremely happy that now when i flirt with her its abundantly clear that i mean what i say and not just saying it in a friendly way.
I love every experience i have with her no matter what our relationship is. Nothing I’ve done with her is something id change in the slightest and I’m so lucky to have her as a friend. Sorry if y’all were expecting more. This took alot of courage for me and I’m happy i did it
Alright y’all hear me out
I take her panties off
And tie my hair up with it before going down
I think if my ass wasnt so big and she was able to do it with mine id find that hot. Hers are small enough that i could do it but i dont wanna if itll cringe her out 💀
Hot or cringe lets vote yall
Before anybody shames me I am already so disgusted with myself so just save it.
I love my husband i really do but i truly dont know if i am capable of being IN LOVE with a man.
We have a house together and got married last year. My best friend was our officiant and so even if me and my husband broke up being with her just seems so out of reach.
Last night we basically confirmed that i was her type and i thought of her all night.
We know eachother so well and id treat her so good.
My heart is aching with longing i want her so bad but also with guilt for what im doing to my husband.
Shes so beautiful and funny and amazing and smart.
Hes kind and generous and patient and the last thing i want is to hurt him but i dont know how much longer i can go on like this.
Thankyou for reading this far i dont know why im posting here my chest just feels so heavy