u/Conscious_Industry87

i feel like i’m just in a prison i mean anywhere you go in the world if you screamed as loud as you could and even louder than that to the point where your vocal chords snap and your lungs just explode the amount of people who would even hear you is vastly insignificant compared to the 8 billion people on earth. the only way i can actually be heard is through music and i just don’t have the skill to actually express myself correctly even after 6 years of practice. i know it just takes time and eventually ill get there, but in the moment i just feel like my entire value is just tied to if i can eventually make something IM proud of, and every day that i cant it feels like my entire value is a risk because its all just in my head and none of it exists in the real world yet.

im year like 6 of making music and i feel like im just not good enough at all yet. i would trade anything in the world to make my iliiaite, but i know its still gonna be years before i can. i would rather die the most painful death and have my music never even be recognized but still finally make a project i can be as proud of as i would be iliiaite than be the most famous musician in the world with music that i think is just ok. i feel like im drowning all the time wanting to express myself through music but just being good enough to do it