So, I came to this forum because I suspect I might be neurodivergent. Could you recommend tests that can actually check for this? (I’m not looking for actual psychiatrists or anything like that—if I wanted to see them, I would have gone already.)
Ps. Thanks for hate and nonsense speech only few people really write something that have any matter and help me to understand something.Being INTP is the absolute worst fucking thing that can happen to you. I never do anything on time, I overthink everything, and—most importantly—no matter what I’m thinking about, I eventually conclude that it’s all meaningless, just like everything else. I genuinely envy people who are called "average." In our circles, that’s become a label, but in reality, being average is the best fucking thing that can happen to you, because you won't be tormenting yourself with stupid questions.I’ve noticed that this hasn't been with me my whole life; it all started with a damn obsession with dinosaurs when I was nine, and after that, my life went to shit. I literally can't feel genuine empathy for other people; I view everything through the prism of logic. Sometimes I wonder why evolution decided to give us such a "miracle" as self-awareness—it’s literally the worst thing that could happen to a living being. I don't even know why I'm writing this, since it's all so pointless. In short: live in the moment, don't try to find patterns or logic—just be ordinary. The one thing I’ve realized for sure is that most things in life depend on luck, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it.