Just looking for anyone to talk to, I personally regret surgery SO much. I seem to have way more symptoms of PMDD post op no HRT and the moment.
No chemical menopause, no requirement to show proof of symptoms.
I feel like a different person. And sorry if I already made a post like this....
I don't know if it's my mind's way of dealing with this or what! Pacing started first. I can't go on FB it's too triggering.
I do the pacing. The rocking back and forth. Especially when I'm nervous. Like I still have a daughter I have to try to do things. I can't even finish writing this. I don't want to do another day.
Anyway just wondered if anyone started doing vocal stuff maybe to try to deal with it. I'm not sure that I even have it.
How could it last this long? Such a small dose. I've made myself crazy trying to figure this out.
If I already get low blood pressure? Anyone have luck with B6?
What's the best treatment?
I took 2.5 mg of Zyprexa for 4 months ( I had taken it in the past for longer but it made me tired.) This pacing started in July and hasn't stopped although it stops at night, it stopped for a week once, it stopped for 2 days.
I cannot get into the Neurologist. I can also stop if I'm completely distracted so it's not Akathsia, right?
After the pacing started I started doing vocal stims/tics 😭 I'm 50 I've never done anything like this!
And why would it randomly stop when I restarted ADHD meds? I stopped when it came back. Why would it stop when I lay down?
At this point I don't think it was Akathsia. Or it was and it became a habit? The anxiety is horrible but I do have an anxiety disorder. Now I'm on something for Psychomotor agitation, Depakote please no horror stories. I do have family that are bipolar and it's possible I guess that I am. I basically begged for it because I feel like such a weirdo.
I just want to rule it out and I'm never going to get to a Neurologist (Medicaid) and incompetent people.
And I'm scared to go. When I have to try to stay still I rock. Well this is just weird sometimes I just run through my little house again unless I'm completely distracted.
I feel like it's just anxiety but I don't know anymore.
Thanks
My psychiatrist who I have been seeing for over 7 years has never seen anyone like me. Psychomotor agitation and vocal tics she says. I'm on Klonipin.
I think maybe I'm bipolar because this doesn't feel right.
Anyone else?
I am diagnosed with major Depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD. Etc
But, I may have had hypomanic episodes. I did get into a fight with my grown daughters and they both thought I was manic once. But I was also very sad. But I think I was probably manic but I blamed it on PMDD
But months ago I started pacing and jumping and talking out loud. My anxiety is severe, I'm not sleeping much. (This all started after surgical menapause) And I just get hysterical sometimes. I'm having conversations out loud and just saying weird stuff. My anxiety is out of control. I feel scared of everything.
My mother was and my brother is bipolar but very classic. They go manic in big, classic ways.
It's humiliating me and I have to stop this. I feel like maybe it's a mixed state. My Psychiatrist mentioned Depakote.
I'm also looping thoughts, can't concentrate. I'm home all day doing this for hours. Pacing, jumping, feeling very irritated but also very sad.
I feel like the only person. Even if I manage to do something I'm talking out loud. But it stops at night. My Psychiatrist says it's Psychomotor agitation. I also am doing repetitive vocal tics when people are around. I can control it sometimes but I rarely sit down and I move from one foot to the other. Rock back and forth etc.
I thought I was cured a couple times when I left the house for a couple days...
Am I the only one? I'm not spending money, I feel horrible about myself. But this has to stop it's driving me crazy. I also have terrible Agoraphobia that's new. I had it a little bit but now I don't want to go anywhere.
Please tell me Depakote will help and I'm not the only one.
It makes no sense to get 2 hours of sleep and run, pace and talk till my voice is hoarse. My brain thinks everything is an emergency. I can't concentrate I'm so self absorbed with "getting better". I'm calling my husband 10x a day.
Anyway please positive stories. No Depakote horror stories.
Feels like a mixed episode I feel afraid all the time or I've read about Dysphoric mania. I can't sleep! Nothing is reliabley helping me sleep! Please