u/ConsrvationOfMomentm

The most impactful things for me were:
Eating regularly and healthily: I make food, have my med, then use it to make more food and eat it asap. Over the past year I’ve recognised I become very very tired, irritated, and anxious when my body needs more food. Being on medication makes it easy to physically prepare food, so use it!!!
Alongside food and drink, PPIs and vitamin B supplements temporarily eliminate my anxiety. I’m yet to see gastroenterology regarding PPIs, as there is a known link between increased acid production (due to stimulants) and anxiety.

They prescribe but they don’t know anything about the actual medication.

Every question I ask they simply dance around the answer.

Medication has really damaged me over the past year as a result and I have now stopped in favour of supplements.

Hey guys. I’m in an organisation where the performance from leadership wasn’t great and the rest of the team started questioning what’s going on.

I found it really interesting that this questioning then made leadership feel comfortable to cave in and discuss as if we were one large friend group. We have then all started working on the organisation’s mission together.

Coming from a non-sociology perspective, this led me to summarise this shift under organisational and social dynamics. I’m interested in what you guys think about it.

I am the assistant in leading a student society.

I have had a plethora of healthcare complications involving many misdiagnoses of a chronic vitamin deficiency and am not in good footing for the next academic year - I've planned to take a year out but have no placement/internship in place and all my exams are heavily delayed.

Reduced cognition due to this deficiency has prevented me from completing onboarding and members of the team are openly criticising this during my attempt to lead while the leader is also unfit to lead.

I have always walked away from (professional) experience with something I'm proud of. But I just don't see that happening here, even while I'm committed to the society's mission.

I'm 100% going to resign. When I think about it it makes me feel completely useless.

And honestly I have no idea how I can resign. They've put me on medication which has f'ed up my communication skills so I almost can't interact with the team at all.

I’m stable on my dose of Amfexa 10mg.

Been on anti acids as needed for a week but have noticed it does affect the strength - will see GP about this.

Want to describe to document this.

First time at cinema in months. Usually I don’t go because of stims but I needed a nice movie break.

I was explaining things to myself out loud in my room at 4pm.

Walked to cinema 5pm. Dialogue became partly internal.

In cinema saw something scary, didn’t want to ruminate so I reassured my self re dialogue (which was completely internal here).

Inner dialogue gained momentum.

Then noticed I was in a position which I can best describe as being on a higher point of control of my body:

- I could think to myself ‘I feel like I’m going to cry’ and I shed tears in the cinema within 10 seconds.

- I also thought to myself ‘I feel normal, and relaxed’ and my body literally went limp and I literally backed out of focus in seconds and began looking around completely grounded. This was before I even realised what had happened.

It was absolutely terrifying and was not something I recommend to anyone. It had me questioning my fundamentals and has led to severe depression for the rest of the day. This is the first time I’m actually believing in something beyond human comprehension. I don’t believe in a higher power or being, but rather a variable point of control since today.