u/Constant-Notice-5221

Over time i've been slowly losing interest in the things i used to enjoy, a while ago i couldn't enjoy music as much as before and now i lost completely my interest in gaming, i haven't played anything for a few days now, fuck my life

I've been feeling like that lately, things are getting worse and i can't rise to the level of the challenge no matter how hard i try, i don't deserve to live, im just a burden for the people i know

Idk how i am supposed to get out of this depressing cycle when with each passing day i feel more useless, im starting to think that the effort i put into looking for a job is pointless, and maybe that makes sense because my 100% is equivalent to another person's bare minimum

I don't even remember how long i've had tinnitus, most of the day i ignore it because im listening to music or keeping myself distracted but when i want to sleep it's super annoying

At this point idk what to do, every time i send a message to the group chat i stop the conversation flow entirely, i never knew how to deal with people but lately i can't even deal with my friends, i am sure that eventually i will reach a point where i no longer talk to nobody and achieve total isolation

Whenever i make a post venting here i feel understood, here i actually get treated like a real human being and don't get a pre-maded answer like "just lock in", i really appreciate you all