So I originally applied for gs7 but i had my hiring process carry on to gs 9 application had my BI interview in April still haven’t gotten a call for poly on top of that my medical still says in process when I did it the same day as fitness test and drug. I know ppl that applied way after me and there process is going way faster can somebody explain?
Being an fbi special agent is my end goal dream career rn. I have a bachelors degree in psychology minor in philosophy I’m 24 rn and for a year and 6 months I’ve been a transportation security officer with TSA post graduation. I’m trying to get into cbp for a a while but the application process is long been waiting almost a year now. I wanna have some law-enforcement experience before I go into FBI. I know it’s not required, but I just don’t want TSA on my background. It’s been a good job for a while, but I’m getting sick of it and since I have a degree, I want to use it and not feel overqualified instead of sticking it out with TSA then applying for FBI and waiting on Cbp and I’ve been looking at other local police departments even out of state. Did I sell myself short or is my path ideal? I still feel behind.
3 years ago I met this beautiful woman at the gym we had the same mindset abt many things she respected me made me feel like a man. It seemed like I had the perfect girl. She took care of me when I was sick went out of her way to help me no woman has ever given me so much affection before. One day I told her about a neighbor who was my friend and passed away she started laughing when i told her to her I maybe explained it in a funny way but it pissed me off and I felt disrespected. She wasn’t taking accountability and said I was bitching and moaning abt its this pissed me off even more so I decided on dumping her. She begged to stay but I ignored her. We could have talked it out probably but I was stubborn and hurt. I also hoped it would give her time to think abt her actions. We met up a week later so i could retrieve my hoodies and we ended up talking it out and getting back together. The relationship went on fine there were ups and downs and I wasn’t the best bf at times but I loved her and thought we would have a future. One day we stayed at this hotel and she was talking abt how her sister and her man broke or some crap and how she was dating again or something. I asked her if she talked to anyone after we broke up. And she said she met up with her ex. This made me sad and angry and I blew up on her I wanted the details. I went through her phone didn’t find anything but it hurt my ego that she went and talked to another dude without me knowing about it. Btw this was shortly after our breakup that happened like a year ago. When asking for details I could tell that she wasn’t giving me all the details and the next day I asked her to tell me again and she started to tell me but once she told me they hung out twice after our breakup I got upset left her she tried to follow me but I told her I was tired of her lying because i felt her story wasn’t adding up. I also felt that she was trying to deflect the conversation by saying things like “I don’t wanna talk abt this rn” etc i dumped her she tried to call and text me i blocked her on everything theres some text that we said before i blocked. Last thing she said is that she’s sorry she hurt me and that she hopes I find someone worthy of me. I told her I will because I’m not worthy for h*es and liars then I blocked
it’s been almost 2 years since I still have her blocked but I still miss her idk if it’s because my dating life has been shit after and I’m just lonely or if we were meant to find closure and talk more. I question how much the relationship meant to her but whatever ig. The reason I haven’t reached out yet is because I don’t want her to have leverage over me and be the one coming back after I dump her. I can’t risk getting rejected over nothing and looking like a fool. Also I feel like she lacks integrity but I miss our moments together. What do y’all think?