u/Content-Western2309

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I just wanna vent without someone trying to “one up me” or turn me talking about my trauma into something about them.. my entire life has been traumatic and I’m so tired of not being able to talk about it. So ya know what, here’s my dump.
My dad was an absent alcoholic and died a few years ago, and I was the emergency contact and POA so I had to fly half way across the country to take him off life support. I have more bad memories of him than I do good.
I got pregnant at 16 and my son was born with cancer and he passed away when I was 17, at just 9 months old.
I then went through a 5 year abusive relationship and completely lost myself. He would SA me and then belittle me and I lost all self confidence.
I had an abortion 5 years ago when my current son was only 6 mo, and literally not a single person knows about, and I hold so much resentment towards my fiancé for talking me into doing it.
I have gone through medication after medication because up until recently I was undiagnosed anxiety, OCD and bipolar. (Woohoo thanks for that dad!) it’s taken years to FINALLY feel “normal”.

Idk, I just needed to vent and be public with my feelings because I’m dying not being able to talk about it. 😭
I need a therapist and can’t get myself to commit to the appointment, ironic isn’t it???

I just wanna make friends yall I am lonely and just wanna chat 😩
I like metal concerts, reading, drawing.. I have a very dark and dry sense of humor and I’m extremely dependent on caffeine and nicotine lmao
DM me if you think we’d hit it off 😊😊