I don’t know if this is just because of the school I go to (very rich, PWI public school) but not having your own car, or even a license in my situation immediately alienates you from any social circle
I’ve had to resort to lies about having my car totaled and taken away to not immediately be judged. Lacking reliable transport is already bad enough but kids just make it worse
Am I the only one in this situation ?
And my class was all Freshmen so 20% of it was spent teaching them what dbqs are
I’ve been a few weeks clean at this point but it’s only because I’ve been so crazy busy and distracted with life.
Things are still busy but I have an added exhaustion and scars that are fading making me want to go back to how it was before. The only reason I can give myself for not doing it is that it’s logically wrong to do so.
I have a fairly new girlfriend that has a very small understanding of this all but that’s not deterring me either. I have some kind of fucked up appreciation with my own scars I feel empty without them.
I can’t help but feel I gain some respect or recognition from people that happen to see them.
How the fuck do I stay clean if I don’t want to be and have no reason to be?