u/Cookiehow

I had posted for advice just yesterday and she suddenly stopped being able to walk and couldnt hold her pee front of her litter box. I knew what was coming but I didnt want to believe it. It was obvious the whole week but I thought she would bounce back again. I wrapped her in her favourite blanket and gave her her favourite treats. I talked with her and let her sunbathe. She was left so small and fragile in just a week I still cannot fathom how could my pretty girl could get so thin. She was the strongest being Ive ever met. She even caught a bird with her levels over the top a few months ago and has been the most energetic and stubborn cat i met. I remember she hissed at the other cats in the vet even while she was half conscious after a heart attack 3 years ago. She never let go even when we thought it was time multiple times throught the 3 and a half years that she was diagnosed. She was stronger than even we were and pushed so hard to be herself even with the pain. I wish I could give her a few more years but her body had gotten so small in just a week I could count her ribs. I cradled her and kept her close till she wanted to get away herself but she couldnt keep herself up after jumping down and just stood where she jumped. I knew she wouldn't make it out the night but I couldnt get myself to have her die front of me. We took her to vet and they also knew she wouldnt mske it but they gave her pain killers and some iv for intensive care. They sent us home with my roommate and at 2am they called to tell me her numbers are so high that the machine couldnt register it. Her liver was failing and she could have a heart attack from extreme potassium levels and severe anemia. I couldnt bear to have the phone afterwards and just as I went to the bathroom I hoped I wouldnt be the one to recieve the next phone call and when I returned my roommate was talking with the vet and at 03.50 she passed away peacefully under sedation. I miss her so much and I wish I could hold her again but it would be selfish even if she made it out tonight. I cant imagine the pain she was under and even then she tried to lick my hand before we left. She was my everything and now its so quiet. I hope she knows that I would give everything to have her healthy and running again but world wasnt that fair on us.

First 2 photos are from today and the last one is from a week ago her ontop of the shower

Ive only posted here one more time when Kimchi was first diagnosed with PCKD (polycystic kidney disease) which was about 3 years ago. Shes 7.5 - almost 8 and has been stable and completely asymptomatic for 2 years around stage 1 and stage 2 levels and this summer her levels spiked up and got her to stage 3 before going back down to low stage 2 levels again and she was stable and energetic up until this week.

She started sneezing repeatedly for seemingly no reason and started to loose weight shortly after. She was already underweight and just starting to gain after this summer and went back to 2kg again. We took her to the vet asap when we noticed her eating less and less and they said shes really dehydrated and gave her iv fluids twice over 2 days and checked her blood levels and said shes not anemic/or not alarmingly anemic for a cat with CKD and theyre gonna check her kidney levels on tuesday. Her kidneys also seem to be the same size as before and I didnt notice any enlargement either from cysts which indicates her levels shouldnt be too high.

But shes just so lethargic and has no energy at all. She has no energy to go anywhere and just changes spots to lay down and i syringe feed her every hour or so and even then she just lays tired. I feel so hopeless from it all going down hill just when she got back her energy. She hasnt been this tired even while being severely anemic and dehydrated with her stomach looking like shes pregnant.

Im thinking if it could be anything else but I feel so lost. Has your cat went downhill like this out of nowhere? Could it be something else that makes her so tired and sick? She doesnt seem to be nauseous and isnt puking which leads me to think it may be something else even more 🥲 i really need some hope for us but i dont want to have false expectations either

Otizmim var ve fiziksel engelliyim genel durumumu özetlemem gerekirse genetik lotonun dibine vurmuş biriyim. Yaklasik 17 yasindan beri bastonsuz yurumekte zorlaniyorum ve ailem yuzunden 18 yasina kadar hicbir medikal destek alamadim. Ailemle aram hicbizaman iyi olmadi ailenin sakatı delisiydim büyürken ve herzaman annemin utanç kaynağı babamında kum çuvalıydim. Herzaman kötü olduklarini biliyodum ve açıkçası evden ayrılsam birşey kalmayacak zaten tüm dertlerim biticek gibi kendimi avuttuğum icin üniversiteye gidince başımın ağrısı biticek gibi geliyodu.

Tabiki bitmedi ve gittiğim doktordan yediğim seylere kadar her ağrım var dediğimde bile telefonda edilebilicek en büyük kavgaları ediyoruz. Telefonda annemin ismini gordugumde bile kendimi biryerlerden atasım geliyor artık. Çocukluğumdan beri bana ihtiyacim olan ne mental nede medikal destegi saglamis insanlara tahammul etmeye calismak okadar koyuyorki. Artık 2 yıldır ayrı bir evde yaşamama rağmen tek değişen şey fiziksel şiddetin ortadan kalkmis olmasi. Yakın zamanda üniversitemin psikolojik destek programiyla terapiye basladigimda ise psikologumun 3 seans sonrasi soyledikleriyle hersey daha da koymaya basladi.

Neredeyse tüm sorunlarımın ailem olduğunun bende farkındayım ama keske iletisimi kesmek dedigi kadar kolay olsa. Maddi olarak tam olmasada bir nebze annemlere bagli yasamak ve 19 yasina kadar hicbir medikal destek alamadığım icin acik soylemek gerekirse sikip öldürdükleri sağlığımla birşeyler yapmaya calismak beni bitiriyo. Keşke ailemi hayatimdan cikarabilsem ve keske hersey farkli olsaydida en azindan 20 yasinda cogu fiziksel becerimi kaybetmeseydim. Elimde yasayabilicegim yillarin sayisinin her gecen gun elimden kaymasini keske onlara odetebilsem ama sadece oturdugum yerde sinir krizine girebiliyorum.

Neyse kore yemekleri cok guzeldi maaşımı aldığımda gitmek icin gecen aydan beri bekliyodum yemekler rose rabokki, gimbap, yangyum soslu tavuk ve japchae

Edit çünkü okuma yazma oranimiz ne yazikki cok dusuk:

Terapistimin direkt soyledigi bir cumleyi degil konustugumuz konuyu yazdim hicbir etik sahibi terapist zaten kimseye direkt olarak hayati hakkinda bu tarz kararlar almasini soylemez. Basligi 10 satir yazamiycagim icin sadece seansimin ozeti olarak o sekilde yazdim luften biraz mantik sahibi olun