HOW DO THEY KNOW IM AUTISTIC WITHOUT SPEAKING TO ME
They can tell from across the room! I had a dude come up and grab my jacket aggressively the other day. I dont know him. I didnt talk to him. He just came up and grabbed it and started talking shit.
Ive trained jiu jitsu for 5 years, and I snatched his hand off me and he INSTANTLY started smiling and saying "peace peace!" and walked away.
This type of thing isnt uncommon. I wasnt even scared because so many STRANGERS have confronted me in public.
What I need to know is, HOW DO THEY KNOW. HOW DO THEY SMELL THE VICTIMHOOD FROM ACROSS THE ROOM?! Ive trained martial arts because ive been targeted my whole life despite being over 6 foot and 220lbs. I feel confident that I can beat the fuck out of anyone who bothers me, and apparently people can tell once the physical conflict STARTS because he basically begged for mercy and ran off.
But WHY AND HOW AM I BEING TARGETED?! WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE IT STOP.
I realized today that the whole tough guy bullshit that Ive developed wasnt my choice but one these animals forced on me. I like animals and gardening! I started martial arts to be left alone, and even though I have confidence and I can stand up for myself, I still have to go through this whole pecking order ritual OVER AND OVER. I got fired from a job 30 minutes in because I was told I had a "weird vibe"
Im so fucking tired. I refuse to submit to these losers, but I just want it to stop at this point so Im no longer pigeonholed into the person I am. I want to be friendly, kind, open, fun. Im forced to shell up and even then it barely takes the heat off.
Fuck them for taking away the person I could have been. Even fighting back means they win because all thats left of you is violence