I'd say I'm pretty good at communicating my thoughts. Articulating things well in general, really. Especially via writing.
I'm a pretty crap driver. I don't do well in high risk situations that require quick reactions.
I know maybe a handful of people who I don't feel wary associating with. The majority of people just seem so full of spite, envy, degeneracy, greed, selfishness, etc, etc. I get that no one owes it to me to live up to my standards. Hell, I often don't live up to my own standards. But at least I try to have standards. I feel remorse, I feel guilt, I try to be better, I *WANT* to be better, etc. Where are the other people who also try? The people who are conscious of their actions? The people who feel they've let themselves down when they fall short of what they deem good?
I don't want to lose faith in people. Because losing faith in people is akin to losing faith in yourself. I *AM* people. But I've been betrayed, lied to, and hurt both emotionally and physically so many times. And the worst part is the lack of remorse or accountability. People will jump through so many mental loops to justify how they are or what they've done.
I definitely have trust issues and emotional barriers of sorts these days. And I really don't want to be like that. But it's starting to feel naive to not be like that. Am I just starting to see people through a negative lense due to my personal experiences?
I get that people are vigilant. Especially online. But surely it can't be healthy to shut yourself off entirely, right? Where can I find people who just want to discuss? connect? Potentially befriend?