For three years I keep hitting some wall or another in the way of getting top surgery. I found places in the U.S and prices, but I keep getting slammed with life and money. I want this to mobilize by 2028. How do I begin? I have a rough idea of pricing. but how do I begin consultations with out any savings? any advice is welcome.
I keep loosing life long connections as I enter into my 30's. People that almost called themselves family and now this time, I might have cut the last of them off for good. I've always struggled to keep friendships as I always over-give or confront issues head on to discover these people I assumed would hear me, aren't even who I thought they were. Its like a repeat of school life all over again, you suddenly discover or figure out people you trusted wholeheartedly were using you as the punchline for years. I grew up alone, and have struggled with the fear for a long time. How do you cope with it on the daily?
As I enter my 30's I find myself. . . . . Alone. Which is both good and bad as I try to focus on healing some very complex active CPTSD. But Now I find myself having lost people in my life I knew for 20 years. saw the birth of their children, we grew up together. and then in one day, I chose to point out the differences we have. I chose to not be the butt of the joke and rather than resolve the issue, I repeatedly find myself loosing friends I invested so much time and love into to discover, it was my just me over giving. I valued people who could care less- and then proved it. Now I only have a few bio-fam members. I think I just need to stop seeking connection and connect with myself. But right now I'm really struggling with the loss. its like I never knew who these people were to begin with.