u/Countrygirlcaterer24

Yesterday, I got a message from Poshmark stating that I have some listings that are inactive due to no activity on them after 60 days. Is this a new category, and why did Poshmark put my items into inactive status? I have never experienced this before. I looked at my Closet, and I do have items in inactive status. Why does Poshmark deactive your listings? Are they trying to eliminate fake accounts or inactive closets? Mine is very active, and I have had recent sales.

I looked at my credit score today, and noticed that it dropped 49 points between February and March. It went up 5 points between April and May. Why did this happen? I have no debt. I got scammed by a conman five years ago. He took out a loan for a motorcycle and talked me into signing on it with him. Biggest mistake on my part, but I was in love and naive! Well, the guy paid the first 3 payments, then dropped the ball and said he couldn't afford any more payments. It landed in my lap, and I had to pay over $28,000 for that loan. That really damaged my credit. I didn't have any debt prior to that or since then. So why did my FICO score drop so low this year and then go up a bit recently?

Three years ago was a day I regretted. It was when I married a man, who I thought would be the love of my life. He had me convinced that he was a Christian and that he would love me forever. He even gave me a card that said, "I wish I would have found you sooner so I could love you longer."

While we were dating, he presented himself as fun loving, kind, and God-fearing. He quickly rushed me into marriage. Well, I thought I had found my one and only. Shortly after we got married, his entire character completely changed. He turned into a cold-hearted, emotionally and psychologically abusive person, berated me and made me feel so unwanted. He didn't want to go to church, and he mocked God, making up stories about the Bible and twisting the scriptures. He did spend time reading the Bible and watching Bible scholars on TV. I wondered what had happened, how he appeared to follow God, but then changed into a scoffer. Life with him was so unpredictable. I walked on egg shells and never knew what his mood was going to be when he got home from work.

All I wanted was a love that would last a lifetime. What I got was disappointment, lies, deception, gaslighting and emotional instability from a man, who refused to love me and care for me the way I desired to be loved and cared for. I kept hoping and praying that things would change, but they didn't. Unresolved conflict put a wedge between us. The distance grew as communication broke down, emotional connection was severed, and priorities were placed on other things. I felt invisible, like I was an inconvenience.

I prayed and believed God would do a miracle and save my marriage. It wasn't meant to be.

My ex-husband left me and moved over 3,000 miles away last year. While I was relieved, I was also broken-hearted. Not for the man, who didn't love me, but because the love I thought I had found didn't even exist. I've grieved, not for what I lost in him, but for the love I never got, the love I hoped for that never grew. How could I have been fooled? I thought God had answered my prayers for a Christian husband, but I believe the devil sent that man into my life to try to destroy me.

Each day, I'll grow stronger. Each day, I lean on the Lord. I'm emerging, happy and carefree, finding a place of peace and contentment. It's been a rough road, but God has been faithful.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18