u/Cptain_penguin

​I just want to rant.

​After seeing a post here, I’m having a strong desire to get married and be a good wife. I’m no longer interested in just collecting money, as money can’t give me kids or heirs. But I don’t know why God always sends me playboys or married men. I just want a true gentleman who can be with me for the rest of my life.

​At the same time, I’m totally annoyed by manipulative, selfish guys. Sometimes I think I’m better off alone. I have my own space and my own time, and I don't have to trouble anyone if I'm sick. At one point, I even thought it would be alright to die alone.

​But it still feels sad to think I won't have heirs or be able to give my parents a grandchild. I'm in my late 20s, but I still haven't met my true love. People keep telling me to be patient. Yes I am, but this patience is killing me. I'm starting to lose my appetite. I only eat to survive now, rather than enjoying the food.

​I'm also not interested in meeting people online, as there is such a high chance of being deceived.

So this is it, the complicated thinking of a woman aka me.

Happy May everyone, may your life be better each day