Crown heights after being OTD
I got guilted into going to siimchas beis this year, and regret it because i find everything triggering. And now that i'm fully clear eyed and clear headed, I see crown heights for what it is. Just another regular neighborhood in a regular city, dirty, just a dump really, and ain't nothing holy about it at all. Rebbe decided to move there out of convenience and nothing more. It isn't any more special than a random town in Nebraska or Texas, and his followers followed and mushroomed. But it's honestly insane that it's like a mecca pilgrimage site or that lubavs and lubav wanna-bes flock there just because of him. Of course I was one of them once. But like, once your out -- it's just a city like any other, and not even a nice one, and definitely not holy.