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I feel like my anxiety has completely destroyed my ability to study and function normally. I dropped out academically for years, and now even trying to relearn the basics feels impossible. I read something, then my brain shuts down, I panic, and I end up feeling mentally empty or exhausted.

I’ve also tried medication treatments, but I don’t feel any real improvement so I stopped afterwards. Sometimes I feel like I’ve been stuck in this state for so long that I don’t even know how to become “normal” again.

The most frustrating part is that I genuinely want to succeed and rebuild my life, but my anxiety is so overwhelming that it takes over everything.

I recently signed up for a public exam, but honestly at this point I feel like it’s already hopeless and that I’m going to fail because my brain can barely handle studying anymore.

I wanted to know if anyone else has gone through something similar and managed to slowly get their studies or life back on track.

Going shopping for school supplies is difficult for me. I have to choose the best textbooks, the best notebooks, and the best folders. I spend an hour and a half checking everything in the supermarket, even the security guards thought I was trying to steal something, my God.

And that’s not all. Just leaving my house is the hardest part like every fk days. Doing all of this feels like I’m constantly torturing myself. This anxiety is ruining my life.

I registered for a public finance exam because I want to prepare for it, but afterward I feel like giving up because I struggle so much with learning the vocabulary. I’ve been out of school for 8 years because of anxiety.

Today, I’d like to continue my studies so I can at least pass the public finance exam. I just want to be able to support myself financially. But it’s so hard. I’ve even lost my high school level. I honestly feel like I’m at a primary school level now. Just FML.

I've always wanted a soulmate, but I don't think anyone would want me. I'm cursed by anxiety; I've tried every treatment 😭

I’ve been anxious for 8 years and nothing is going right in my life. I keep failing at everything, to the point where I even struggle to leave my house. I signed up for a civil service exam and I want to study, but it’s so hard. My brain doesn’t function normally. I really want to kill myself guys. I constantly feel depressed. I already tried medication and it only made things worse, so I stopped. Today the problem is still there. I feel like I have an invisible disability. I just want to end my life. I truly feel like a worthless piece of shit. Before all this burden came into my life, I was normal; now I don't know what to do except die.My brain feels like I have Alzheimer's, I'm only 24 years old, it's been rotting away for 8 years..I don't even have the academic level of a middle schooler because of anxiety ; I'm the laughingstock of the family.

Guys, I've been alone and isolated at home for a while now. I've been feeling depressed for no apparent reason I feel like I only have negative though + exhausted, and then I have suicidal thoughts. I'm afraid of losing control; it feels like some kind of a panic attack is coming on, or what is it, does anyone know experience this before?? 😭

Yesterday I managed to get out of my house, I was happy, but today I couldn't. One day it's fine, the next it starts all over again. I might as well kill myself rn I feel like shit man I have no f"**k idea how to go through this and every night i suffer from insomnia FML

Yesterday I was crossing at a pedestrian crossing and it honestly scared me. I had already crossed half of the road, but behind me there were still cars driving really close to my back, like only one meter away. Then in front of me, cars coming from the other direction didn’t want to stop and let me finish crossing.

I felt trapped in the middle of the road and really unsafe. My god this was so scared 😭 😭

I don't want to cross the street again after this bad experience man

Yesterday I was crossing at a pedestrian crossing and it honestly scared me.
I had already crossed half of the road, but behind me there were still cars driving really close to my back, like only one meter away. Then in front of me, cars coming from the other direction didn’t want to stop and let me finish crossing.

I felt trapped in the middle of the road and really unsafe. My god this was so scared 😭 😭 😭

I don't want to cross the street again after this bad experience

I get the impression that all drivers are bad guys

It's been 3 days I'm isolated because I have a fear going outside my house now I'm standing in front of the front door, I can't do it when I see myself in the mirror I feel ugly asf because I have acnes too broken skin I want to die 😭

I went to the public library to register for a library card so I could print some documents so it's mean interaction with a worker there . I didn’t overthink it I just went. It felt like exposure therapy, and it actually helps me a lot. Normally, I struggle to leave the house, but once I force myself to walk through that door, everything becomes okay and I can manage on my own. The problem is that the next day, the fear of going outside comes back again. After that, I even went out to eat alone despite trembling from anxiety.

So if I can do it, you can too! Come on everyone, let's gooooo!

I think the next step would be to go and introduce myself to a training center to do something; I've been sedentary for years. I lost my adolescence and my young adult life I'm almost 30 now..

I already struggle to be myself and go outside my home ; I've been discriminated against my whole life, I have trouble accepting my ethnic origins. The homeless shouted at me loudly ching Chong go back to your country hello ni hao just fk hate that I hate them I hate everybody.. I really want to kill myself This is also why I have trouble socializing, because even in my presence I feel like people are judging me based on my origins.

For context, I have to do everything myself as an adult. I have trouble leaving my home; if I do, I depersonalize myself for several hours. Every day I struggle. I want to look for a job or training, but I'm unable to cope with my severe anxiety. I want to end my life. I fail at everything.and tried all different meds for my case it's just worsen everything so I stopped I'm truly at my wit's end. I understand that social exposure is a requirement to succeed, but it's easier said than done given my situation. I'm desperate, guys. Tomorrow I have to go get a photo taken to renew my ID, and then I also have to go to places I don't know. It's killing me mentally; I'm already panicking to death..

Why god gift me this what have i done to deserved this man sometimes I question if god really exist or not..

Since 2019, I've mentally collapsed. I've hit rock bottom. I've failed my studies again and again. I see others progressing while I, disabled, can't even go outside.Every day I fight; higher education is over because of my anxiety and depression. Seven years of failure, I've wasted all that time because my freaking brain is broken, it goes in and out, I'm so fed up with being a f*****g idiot Before these mental health problems started, I was doing well, not dropping out of school. Now I've really hit rock bottom; I'm going to end up on the street soon. I prefer to take my own life

I've already tried medication, almost going crazy and ending up in a psychiatric hospital; I see no other way out than to take my own life. I'm helpless at this point

I am 24. I’m so tired of people. I can’t work. I can’t even step outside my house. I don’t feel safe in society anymore.

I’ve met so many cruel people throughout my life that it has completely broken me. Now I suffer from severe anxiety and depressive symptoms.

I want to get help, but it feels impossible. I have selective mutism, so even talking to healthcare professionals becomes overwhelming. I stutter, I freeze, I just can’t get the words out. And when I do speak, people often misunderstand me, which makes everything even harder.

I want to get diagnosed, but it’s so hard to find a good psychiatrist. I’m about to give up.

I don’t have any friends anymore. Well… I used to, but I lost all of them. I don’t know how to connect with people. I’ve been a people pleaser my whole life, wearing a mask just to be accepted. I only wanted to have friends… but everything ended up going wrong.

People misunderstand me. They see me as cold, or even mean. They judge me based on my face or my attitude, without knowing what I’m going through inside. Sometimes I can hide it, sometimes I can’t.

The burnout started when I was 17. I almost ended my life. And I’m still suffering today. It’s been 7 years lost to chaos.

I only have a high school diploma… but what’s the point if I’m unable to study or work? It feels like my brain is broken. Like it doesn’t work the way it used to.

I’m tired of pretending. Tired of surviving instead of living.

>!I just want to die If only it could be that easy ...!<

I really want to kill myself. I was right there in front of the computer, ready to click the "join" button, but I couldn't. I kept thinking and thinking about what I should say, etc... It's killing me, guys. I literally have mental breakdowns after that and want to hurt myself too because I missed the opportunity to get help I'm such a loser