u/Creative-Leg2607

Basically, we buried the chaff from an Oyster Mushroom grow in my backyard (we /thought/ gold oysters, yeah we know it was a mistake ecologically but theyre here now). Theyve fully colonised this sickly Loquat in my backyard, and this is now the third flush (after about 3 years). I dont have any images from the other flushes, but i did convince myself that they were Oysters the first year, ate them and did not die.

But they have an annulus? So far as i can see only the veiled oyster is supposed to have that, theyre rare in Aus (I'm in Sydney) and they dont have the right cap shape/texture so far as i can see? Also long ass stems, and the gills arent /that/ decurrent, and the colour is weird if they were gold oysters (they were definitely about this colour in previous years, i think it was just a different kind of oyster). They do not glow (which rules out the Ghost Mushroom lookalike).

My best guess is that theyve been hybridising in the ground the last couple years and picked up some weird traits but iunno, im confused.

I recently pulled the six of wands in the hopes and fears slot of a celtic cross reflecting on grief over my mother which overall had the theme of trying to institute more creative practise to emulate/connect with her. And i just... cant find a way to make it fit, and frankly, i think there are relatively few scenarios where it ever would, for me.

I understand the card to loosely speak on the themes of fame/recognition and success/victory (such is really all the discussion i can find on the card). But... i hate hate hate the energy of going into really any endeavour seeking renown or reward. I want to create because i want to create, it has a thousand potent personal benefits, and i feel i need to seek those independently of whether the outputs are any good.

I wanna do things because they're right, or i want to, not because it turned out well in the end? It was the wrong move to play roulette even if i won, and the right to try and find love even if i failed. I guess you extrapolate far enough and the success is the doing, the success is the choosing yhe right move, even if it fails in a given instance. And those benefits youre hoping to achieve are a kind of success... but it all feels so hollow.

I am a big fan of the numerical associations for minor arcana, which connect 6s to the lovers (eh? Doesnt feel helpful) and also the devil ( 1+5=6, definitely more interesting...), but these dont feel like they fix my problem.

Theres a few cards that run along this theme, for me: the naive interpretations are about things i dont care about, like money, or sin, or victory. But ive always found alternative means of interpretation that are ultimately more nuanced and align with my values, but so far the six of wands eludes me.

Any help?

Planted Oyster Mushrooms a few years ago, but they have annula? (AUS)

I think I hate the Six of Wands (RWS)