u/Creative_Snow_879

Never diagnosed but always struggled with math. It takes a lot of effort to work with numbers and I need to be well enough to do it. Is it just math anxiety? I’m very sad because I have the scientific thinking that has got me very far but now that I need to do advanced modelling I can’t figure out the basic steps and am very very slow. Looking for some support… how am I supposed to accept that I will not be able to do fast science which is so weirdly important these days? I still want to learn how to implement my science because I am realising I can’t transplant my brain… there are a lot of people great at math but couldn’t really get what I want to do by intuition. Has anyone experienced this? I feel so stupid right now.

Edit: I am very used to compensating for my difficulty in math and equations by recognising patterns. Just don’t know if I should console myself by accepting that I’m bad at math or it taxes me too much… have had a few mental breakdowns and not sure if I should just call it a day professionally. Maybe this is it? As far as I can go?

For a two month visit during summer, are there opportunities to work with animals (such as volunteer at a car shelter) or plants (part time gardener perhaps? Just to give my poor brain a break from all the cognitive intensity …

I’m usually ok with not overdoing the Benzos but lately I’m not sure if the work stress is getting to me or I just need a complete break… because every time I finish something someone else is chasing me for another thing that’s not just only the thing. For instance, for task A there will be a sequence of events to occur before A could happen… etc. How do I know if I’m trying hard enough before reaching out for Benzos and sometimes more than I should… so my question is to psychiatrists, what would you ask your patient if this is an emerging pattern and your patient knows it’s not ideal but they could only numb their brain somewhat for them to carry out what is needed and nothing else…

Sorry long rant. But if I can’t reduce the work stress what else can I do? I tried exercising again (med adjustment made me too souped up for a while) but I have limited energy to exercise still)

I have a friend who suspects they are gifted and AuDHD (both undiagnosed), and after years of trying therapy and admitting that those sessions have become rant sessions instead of anything therapeutic. This time they asked for recommendations from their psychiatrist and said they need someone who are used to dealing with very smart patients, because they would like someone who would challenge their unhealthy thinking patterns. So my question is to psychiatrists on this feed: 1) can my friend come across as full of themselves when saying this to a psychiatrist? 2) is their assessment that counsellors and psychologists who are not used to treating gifted patients often get “out-talked” by a patient very good at intellectualising their problems? And 3) do psychiatrists treat their gifted and/or neurodivergent patients differently than neurotypical patients

Everything was going well before 2020 and being 2e and AuDHD the compensation got harder and harder and it broke me. Now on recovery I had to make peace with tenure track not being a healthy option and would probably need to go back to doing what I could naturally do well because that will give my nervous system a break it desperately needs. Any of you have experienced this? And how do you get past the loss?