So lately I've been drinking 4-5 cups of coffee a day and I've just dealt with the anxiety. Yesterday I had less and I felt less shaky and more comfortable in public. So today I'm limiting myself to one and I'm just wondering what other people's opinions are on caffeine. I get paranoid when I physically shake
So I collapsed 5 days ago and this whole situation is confusing so bare with me. I collapsed in public while I was high on tramadol. Originally I thought it was the drug that caused it.
I woke up to a stranger asking if I was ok and I couldn't get up. I eventually did and I continued walking to the shop. I discovered that I injured my elbow and it looks like I tore my tricep as it looks smaller. I was taking anabolic steroids and previous heart examinations suggested my heart was overworked.
I have since ceased taking anything and on heart health supplements. I also woke with a pain in my chest and it soon faded but it would return if I coughed or sneezed. This whole situation is confusing because I originally thought it was the drug, my focus then shifted to my swollen elbow and bruising and now I'm thinking back and realising that it couldn't have been the tramadol that caused my collapse.
I'm going to get looked at because right now it could be anything, I owe a thank you to the universe that I'm still breathing and not dead from the shit I've been taking
I'm scared people are plotting against me and think I'm evil. This episode started after I smoked weed a few days ago and had a bad trip in front of people I had just met. Before that I was fine and I didn't think I'd have such an adverse reaction. I feel like a horrible human being
When I have it I take 1.5grams the one that gives you a flush. I quite like it I feel it does something positive for my mentally even if it's placebo. I originally found out about this when looking at studies in the 1930s which showed a 90% improvement of psychotic symptoms with schizophrenia patients taking 3 grams a day at least.
I'm not saying this study would be actually true nowadays but I feel it's probably a good thing to try alongside medication. My question is what are your experiences with it if you have ever tried it?
I think for us going through horrible experiences when off meds and then depressing experiences on meds it's good to try and enhance your brain and body for a better quality of life. And if it's cost effective even better
Last 6 weeks have been tough in terms of motivation, before that I had difficulty sticking to the plan but I still lifted enough to notice a difference. I haven't gained much at all lately and I have such easy access to my weights but I'm a massive procrastinator.
Today I'm doing a bit of everything besides legs and it feels good to get a pump again, but lately every workout has felt like a one off because I have 4 rest days inbetween maybe even more. Just a bit of a vent today I'm happy I'm doing some lifting again I just wish I could keep a steady plan of 3-4 days a week.
I might start taking tyrosine because I felt more awake when it was in my nootropic bottle yesterday with a bit more drive but I'll see about that. If anyone has any advice for anhedonia I appreciate it, I'm lowering my antipsychotics dose soon so that may help
Just posting because it's halfway through the night after forgetting my medication during a one night stay away and I managed to sleep a few hours but now I'm wide awake. It's actually kind of nice to not feel so sedated.
I'm planning on lowering my dose by 2.5mg soon as it's been agreed with my doctor, I look forward to reducing the negative symptoms. I may repost again when the day starts if I experience any positive symptoms. I doubt I will for missing one day, not sure what to do for the next 3 hours my partner is fast asleep next to me and I don't want to disturb her