My 12 year old sons dream has details from my teenage trauma
My son was talking about a scary dream he had where there was a killer called *Benny and Benny had killed me and taped me to the wall, also I was covered in red pen.
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This sent chills down my spine as I was seriously assaulted (obvs not murdered) by someone called Ben. I was covered in red pen and weirdly, the pen was taped to the wall.
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My son was telling me the dream alongside my partner and our other son so I didn't react at the time, other than saying that's really scary.
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I can't stop thinking about this. My children don't know what happened to me when I was younger. Even when I have discussed the event with (very few) people, I do not share the details about the pen and the tape.
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I did not want to talk to my partner about this as he is such a cynic he would shut it down as coincidence, but I feel there is more to this.
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I often think about how close I could have come to dying after the assault, and feel both fear and relief.
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* I have changed the name, but it's a similarly common kind of name.