u/Crucifuxion

Please help, I’ve got brain worms spilling out of my ears about top growth

TL;DR: I listened to a podcast that convinced me my top growth has stopped before it even started because of my age

I listened to this podcast on a 9 hour drive. It’s like the 1st hour and I find this podcast and I’m really happy. I pick an episode about the long term effect of HRT. Then both hosts, who started HRT a little before 25, said that they noticed immediate breast growth and then nothing else after that for like two years, so they had to get implants. They said that this was more likely the older you are when you start and I’m 35.

I started a couple weeks ago on injections and saw immediate growth, like immediate.

My left side is actually starting to look like a boob, and my right side has grown but it’s not noticeable to the eye unless I’m looking down at it. The right side hurts way more than the left too.

I’m so scared they’ll top out before you can really even see them. Like terrified. I’m so skinny and small I was already worried. I know it’s stupid, but I was so happy before I heard that and now all I can do is cry and wish someone would hold me.

I’m crying right now.

Doesn’t help it’s the first time I’ve felt that way in like 15 years.

I was riding this wave of euphoria and felt so feminine and amazing, and it’s like none of it matters anymore. I don’t know if I feel feminine at all.

I can’t get new implants every 10 years, I just can’t commit to it financially, mentally or physically.

Can I please have some of you older ladies weigh in on top growth experiences?

Feels good.

Getting to this point was incredibly nerve wracking and ended in driving 10 hours to get it out a mailbox.

But it was worth every bit of it.

I owe this sub a debt of gratitude for a multitude for reasons. I seen redditors go above and beyond to help each other here in ways that would baffle your average user.

So thanks y’all

So, this kind of a weird post, but bear with me.

I’m mtf, been self training and watching a bunch of Seattle Voice Lab videos. My target voice is sort of like Phoebe Judge from Criminal, it’s a really good true crime podcast. Extremely popular. She’s a baritone and I am too.

Problem is, I have a weird thing with my Adam’s apple, where I hate for it to be touched. TW, Physical child abuse: >!Someone choked me when I was I was a child by grabbing around my neck with both hands and pushing their thumbs into my Adam’s apple.!< Obviously there was Madam’s apple at the time, being a child, but the fact remains, that area is off limits.

I’m wondering if y’all drop your larynx after speaking? I would like to be able to drop it when not speaking so I’m not actively feeling all those muscles tense. But even as we talk right now, once I raise it, it is locked there and I can’t drop it without concentrating, like meditative, closed eyes, concentration.

I know, I know, my steak is too juicy, my lobster tail too buttery.

Do you relax it when not speaking usually. I’m serious I’m sitting here writing this and it’s completely locked in. Idk wtf to do about it.

As much as I love gender euphoria and looking at new clothes and shaving my legs and all that stuff. As much as I love affirmation and feeling safe in my own head, you know what I love more?

Trans people. They’re so willing to help, the concept of mutual aid is alive and well here, and it’s not like this is some revolutionary leftist ideal we spread amongst ourselves; it’s entirely apolitical generally speaking. It arises out of shared experiences, hardship, true empathy and the compassion naturally begotten from knowing what it means to be both ostracized and unconditionally accepted all at once.

It’s not everyday you see this caliber of community and acceptance. Sure there are gatekeepers and little sects here and there, like anywhere, but they’re not representative of who we are as a whole. They’re people in pain, and the thing about pain is that it can be unreasonably demanding of your attention, no matter how little relevance it actually has to a situation.

I think about this and I’m so proud to be one of you, despite all the pain and hardship it entails. I take the responsibility to pass on this kindness seriously.

Y’all are awesome. <3

I basically can’t hand my phone to anyone

/me facepalms