u/CucumberNumerous7520

I’m learning how to navigate being a 24F loser. If you do click my pf, there is a post that explains more about my journey and starting over.

One, American society views being a loser as a negative trait since it’s used so broadly and flippantly, including insulting. To me, I’ve learned being a loser doesn’t have to be that way. I can be a happy loser.

Two, little to no expectations. Since you don’t perform for others anymore, it can feel odd and lonely at first just…being around by yourself. I do try to attend some social gatherings and places to a degree but probably not as nearly as much as I should tbh. Nobody cares so why should it matter if I wear to pjs at Walmart? I’d fit right in lol.

I think the saddest thing is, I probably couldn’t even have a boyfriend to save my life. In natural selection, I wouldn’t be anyone’s first. Sure, it shouldn’t matter as you might be wondering. But sometimes that feeling lingers more than it should. But hopefully over time, it’ll pass by. I may never get to experience what it’ll be like having an adult relationship again, or marriage, or someone who loves me. But at least I’ll get to experience traveling, saving, enjoying music, art, and singing. Hopefully I can make a living from someday in the future I actively try to work on the achieve.

Ps: if you think this is fake, I could careless. Doom scroll, carry on✨I don’t have much more to say or the energy to

(Sorry if some are seeing this again. Honestly, I forgot to do the verification so that was my mistake so that’s why my previous post got taken down, and I’m reposting. Fingers crossed it won’t get taken down!!)

Pretty much all I wanna say. But I know I’ll probably have to give context.

My life didn’t go as planned, and I struggled a lot with anxiety and depression. So when things didn’t go to planned, ofc I would feel panicked of not being about to keep up with society norms. Like having stability, a live-able wage, a stable job, thinking about life, wondering if I’m pretty enough, stressed out about life, not feeling like I have great parents(they divorced when I was 7yrs old), being cheated on, bullied at work. It was really pilling on.

Taking a roll of my mental health as you can imagine.

And now at 24F, I just decided to start over with my life and become a happy loser. Because, who cares about losers if I fail and succeed so many times? No one bats an eye at losers so why should I even care or worry. I don’t apply nearly as many new jobs as I should (yes, I do have a current job rn, just thought about switching). And I’ve accepted that I won’t be anyone’s first, I don’t have any friends, and maybe not ever experience getting married. I’ve become a minimalist, I don’t really have parents, and have focused more on my passions everyday with music and art. And oddly? It’s given me more satisfaction than trying to achieve an artificial standard of what societal norms- uhh…I guess whatever they want me to be. Which is SUPERRR draining btw. I just focus on what I can control. My music, art, and singing. (I do wanna add here, I’m an alto/mezzo after training in Bel Canto for close to three years! Which I’m more proud of than anything!)

Soooo…hi, I’m a burnt out 24F average looking person who doesn’t know wtf I’m doing but at least I’m being the most happiest loser I can be enjoying my passions and not trying to climb a corporate ladder✌️

Btw, just to clarify this isn’t supposed to be a sad post. I’m just being raw and honest about me and my situation just wanting to get off of my chest.

Update 1: I kind of threw this out here not expecting much, but holy shit, wow I wasn’t expecting this much support, thank you so much!🫪