Finally accepted myself—I’m bi! 🩷💜💙
I am a 32 F and am fairly new to the sub. Recently, I have been questioning my sexuality as I have always had an inkling that I wasn’t straight—starting when I was 11 years old. I had little crushes on my fifth and sixth grade teachers, both of whom were women. Over the years, I’ve had crushes on men, dated men (was in a relationship with one and recently got out of a 4 year situationship with one) and pushed away that thought of liking women.
I was struggling with my sexuality for several years and I recently realized I am bisexual. This comes after learning that looking at women and being sexually attracted to them as a straight-identifying woman doesn’t mean you’re straight. I’ve even taken quizzes to see if I was straight. While I am sexually attracted to both men and women, I am also emotionally attracted to men and have imagined futures with them as well as had sexual fantasies of them. I don’t imagine futures with women nor do I have sexual fantasies of them. Learning all of that made it finally click for me.
So, I’m bi. It feels really good to say it. While this is only the beginning of my journey (I’ve had trauma in my life and have battled with anxiety/depression), at least I’m being honest with myself now and I’m done hiding parts of myself. I am starting to be open to exploring that side of women more.