need advice
hello everyone, i just want to start by saying im sorry if this is all over the place and doesnt make sense + my grammar isn’t correct ECT ECT…
pretty much im stuck in a rut and i need advice on what to do. i was born and raised in a big town with all of my friends and family, i had multiple friend groups and would hardly ever be home, one day out of nowhere i left the town (because i had told my mum what my father was doing to me so the police told my mum to take me) i didnt have shoes or socks, i didnt have a jumper, no charger literally nothing, i immediately went no contact with my father after living with him for 15 years and it was really really really traumatic for me along with leaving everything and everyone behind, i pretty much had to start my whole life over with absolutely nothing. anyway its been a few years now of living here and unfortunately i haven’t got A SINGLE friend (im not jst saying that i mean i literally dont have a single friend) and yes its my fault because im avoidant but i really want to get my shit together, i had to quit my job because my anxiety was insane, now i don’t have any social interaction, i haven’t talked to anyone in ages and im only 18. i had a therapist but i couldn’t go because i was to anxious. what would you guys do in this situation? should i move back to my old town by myself? should i stay here being lonely? i want to get a job, i want to move out of my mums house and i want friends. not to mention i have lost myself in thoses years, i don’t do anything for myself anymore, dont buy myself anything. please help me i feel like this is never going to end. i’m so lonely