Why is my father like the way he is
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I am 17(F) and my father is an alcoholic. Being his daughter honestly feels like a curse sometimes. He verbally abuses me , talks to me with no respect, and treats us like we are nothing. He always threatens to stop paying for my education whenever there’s an argument.
I recently passed 12th with 85% and I really want to pursue CA, but he didn’t even congratulate me once. Instead, he keeps making me feel guilty about money even though it’s not like we are struggling financially(he earns nearly 1 lakh per month). He is very self centred only thinks about him self and has a lot of ego
Seeing healthy father-daughter relationships hurts me so much because I keep wondering why mine could never be like that. I am so tired mentally. Sometimes I feel like giving up on my dreams because living in this environment is exhausting.