Life’s a joke
Life is so funny.
You see. After 3 years as a first gen international student, I just got dismissed. I’ve never been in a relationship and the first relationship I had has turned into domestic abuse which I had to take legal action. The legal proceedings took more than just a few months. I also didn’t have any support doing all these. I know things were getting me overly anxious and depressed about everything. I missed classes I never intended to miss and I just don’t remember a lot of what I did with my time. I probably ruminated a lot. I made a mistake, I guess. The college refused to give any grace even with the documented SA and other things. I didn’t want to withdraw. So now as a result I just got dismissed. The dismissal letter says I have to leave the states in two weeks.
I’ll try to appeal but they already knew my circumstances before dismissing me so I don’t know the chances. Two weeks ain’t enough for a lot to happen realistically. They denied all my efforts to get any support to prevent this.
It’s kinda funny. I fought so much, alone, to get where I am and I’m just fucked now. Left alone and fucked. I said many times that I didn’t ask for any of these, but I mean, I can’t really do anything about it right?. Did I really deserve this? I don’t know. How long can I keep going? I don’t know either. I’m getting really tired.