in need of urgent advice!
hi guys, i’m pretty new to reddit, so i’ve only posted on here a handful of times and am not familiar with mods or subreddit rules whatsoever. i’ve tried making this post a couple of times, so please let me know if there’s anything i need to change to make sure i’m adhering to the rules. i’m just in need of some advice! i completely understand the consequences of my actions and am simply looking for guidance now.
hi guys, not really sure who to talk to about this, and i’ve posted in a couple different subreddits, so sorry if you’ve seen this more than once. anyways, i figured i’d post here and see if anyone has any insight. i recently made a connection that honestly has me wondering if some of what i’m experiencing might be a consequence of my own actions. basically, there was this guy i met through social media. at first, he was very engaged, as in texting first, starting conversations, showing interest, etc. at the time, though, i was interested in someone else, and unfortunately that situation ended up falling through.
eventually, this guy and i started going on dates. things progressed pretty quickly, and we ended up sleeping together. initially, i genuinely thought i could handle keeping things casual, and everything seemed fine. but over time, i started developing stronger feelings than i expected. once i realized that, i made sure to communicate it to him. his response was basically that he thought it would be best if we remained friends, with the occasional hookup here and there. at the time, i convinced myself that was probably in my best interest and agreed to it.
now here’s where things get a little… delulu. during my phase of desperately wanting things to work out and honestly not communicating nearly as much as i should have, i ended up buying a pretty intense devotion/love spell from a well-known spellcaster. after that, i bought a few more services, including a protection spell, a “come back to me” spell, a communication spell, and a glamour spell. the glamour spell and protection spell were mainly for myself, but the others were centered around the situation with him. the thing is, over the past couple of weeks, i feel like i’ve genuinely been going a little crazy. i’m constantly thinking about him, analyzing everything, replaying conversations, imagining scenarios, and just feeling way more emotionally attached than feels normal for me.
and that’s what led me to this realization. i’m starting to wonder if all of this energy has affected me more than it has affected him. because honestly? i haven’t really noticed much of a shift on his end. if anything, we communicate less now than we did before. i haven’t seen some dramatic surge of interest, increased communication, or any of the things i thought i was hoping for. so now i’m kind of stuck.
i know a lot of manifestation communities say not to obsess over your SP and to just trust the process, release control, and allow things to unfold naturally. but i’m finding that incredibly difficult when this person seems to be on my mind constantly. the weird part is that this really isn’t like me. i’m not usually someone who becomes this fixated on a person i’ve only known for about a month. i’ve never been the type to obsess over someone’s every move or spend this much mental energy on one person, which is why this whole thing feels so strange.
so i guess i’m wondering if anyone has advice.
should i reach back out to the original spellcasters and ask for their input? should i just leave everything alone? i briefly considered doing some kind of cord-cutting ritual, but honestly, i’m not an expert, and i really don’t want to spend much more delulu money than i already have. at this point, i’m mostly looking for clarity and peace of mind. the truth is, i still have feelings for him. part of me genuinely believes there could have been something really beautiful between us if circumstances had been different and if both people had been equally invested.
but at the same time, i’m also coming to accept that i can’t force someone to feel something they don’t feel. for my own mental health, i think i need to learn how to detach and let go of trying to control the outcome. ideally, i’d like to just hand it over to the universe and focus on myself. of course, there’s still a small part of me that hopes he eventually reciprocates the energy. but i think i’m finally starting to accept that if he doesn’t, i’ll be okay.
any advice, experiences, or thoughts would be appreciated.
thank you for reading.