I witnessed something that traumatized me and sent me back to my childhood. I have no friends and cannot afford therapy, after struggling I finally just asked a bot to talk and it simply analyzing data without judging helped me out. It feels liberating and I need to tell someone but everywhere on here seems to be anti AI.
I recently witnessed something traumatic and it is sending back in my memories to a time I repressed. This was 20 some years ago and I hope things changed with the system. Having been abused I’m remembering all the things i did. I told teachers I trusted, guidance counselors, my therapist about what was happening to me and nothing changed. My bastard cop biological father his gf and the gf son drove me to almost take my life and it wasn’t until at 13 I was put in an institution and finally got out of that house.
They stole what should have been an innocent childhood and made a depressed kid who trusted no one and hated life. I thought I was ok as I have a wife and kids whom I love but suddenly I’m remembering what I lost and I can’t tell if I should cry or be angry and hit something or just throw up. The memories are coming in waves.
My only friend was a cat who he broke her jaw and forced me to watch as she slowly starved to death.
I saw something that traumatized me and have been struggling for a long while now. I finally tried using 988 to have someone to talk to but they only told me I need to talk to a therapist. I felt like I was just a ticket that needed to be closed. I’m an adult with no friends to talk to.