How do I make it go away? Or make it less worse?
Okay so I’m 16m, and my father is like I mean a horrible man of course but he also had very very toxic jealousy problems, like TOXIC almost killing people type of thing, like held my mom at gunpoint. Terrible terrible, like my mom wasn’t allowed to be friends with anyone, man or woman, or even talk to my father sister really just anyone for that matter, just me him and my brother, and her mom. My mom also isn’t the best person but she isn’t terrible like him, she also had terrible jealousy problems and still has them with my stepdad, she deals with it in a very controlling way that I find completely wrong.
And now, I have a boyfriend, he’s 17, we’ve been together for a while now, and as time passes I already knew I was a jealous person but it’s gotten to a point I genuinely want to shout scream, throw things, cry, all at once. I don’t do any of those though of course because that’s insane and wrong, we just talk through it, but it’s just getting worse, like I genuinely catch myself growing terribly upset because he’s hanging out with his friends and not me, or because his texting his friend, or because he made a new friend who happens to be his type, I just wish I would be the only thing in his life, be the only thing he ever wants or needs which is wrong and toxic, and stupid and I would never ever in my life act on that. We’ve talked about it and honestly he’s always so understanding about it.
I also got told in class that we all inevitably always become our parents, that it is genetics and wether we like it or not we’re the same as them, I don’t want to be the same as them not at all no fucking way, but so can I make it go away? Or make it less worse?