u/Daisymae668

Did you do anything to ensure that you would be bigger? Like diet or exercise

Do you ever find yourself wanting to show the world. I have a car with dark tinted windows. Sometimes the opportunity comes around

Looking at these experiences and thinking of my own, makes me think. The people who have done these things have shown no fear of repercussion. Or at least not enough to stop them from doing it in the first place. When I'm out and about or when I'm on IG and I see people that look seemingly happy and have everything going for them, I figure nothing has really gone bad for them. I've been renting a room in my place for a little while. I have this person who has been late almost every month and where I am it's hard to get rid of them.

All of the bad things that have happened to me put these dark thoughts inside. I had this girl who rented a room from me only for 2 months while she was recuperating from knee surgery. She's very pretty. I remember her mom thanking me for keeping her safe. Meanwhile the whole time she was there I was hoping maybe she would show an interest in me. Maybe she did and I didn't see it. We're in two different worlds so if anything it could be temporary. But I didn't see it and I didn't pursue it.

Suddenly I came up on the thought that perhaps I could apply to be a foster parent. I think it would be far better than renting out a room. It seems like they allow anyone to do it. I hear these stories of things happening, I would never Force anything and I doubt they would show any interest. If they did it would be very hard to stop myself. But if they did I would be as gentle as I've been to those I've loved. It's crazy, I know that some have done things just because they did it in the last place and they expect that it's required which is a sad thing.

I hope I can continue on here, this place is very restrictive