I've been friends with this guy for 2-3 years now. We're coworkers and became friends.

He and I have never hung out one-on-one outside before, and it's usually because I don't like doing one-on-ones, especially with the opposite gender.

Anyway, plans were made last year in August '25 to meet. I pushed it back because of school, moving it from August to September, then November, etc.

Now it's May, and I'm running out of excuses not to meet up. I asked if we should invite one of our mutual friends, and he said no, so that's out of the window for alternatives.

Don't get me wrong, he's a good friend, but our vibes don't always link, and we don't have much in common, so meeting up would be awkward for me, especially because I'm asocial.

Thoughts?

To start, I don't know if i'm overreacting and just being dramatic so please listen and hear me out.

I love listening to people. I love hearing them talk about themselves for hours on end. About their life, what they're doing—down to the smallest insignificant things. I'll literally sit there and talk with them until they're done.

Now, the problem is,

I have a bsf of 3-4 years. She's great, the longest friendship i've had in a long while where we still stay in contact everyday or periodically. Whenever we text, it'll be about her, what she's doing, hows she doing, etc, like any friend would, right?

Well, I rarely talk about myself much (past experiences have ruined my connection in trusting ppl and opening up to them). But when I do, when i'm really going through it and just need her comfort for just a second, it never happens.

The topic always goes back to her, is brushed off, or ignored, and I just feel like I shouldn't have said anything at all. I would have to add a hook just for it to show on her notifications in order for her to respond.

Even if I wasn't going thru it and just wanted to talk about my day or what I'm doing, I never get a reply for hours on end, days even. I know we all have our own lives and stuff, i'm not expecting much, but still..

I know she has other friends who shes known longer, and probably even more closed to. I might not be her bsf but she is mine and I appreciate her a lot regardless.

Thoughts?

Been wanting to do angst thats so gut wrenchingly morbid that it will have you crying.

- Hurt no comfort - Hurt and comfort

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Carefully read below, please. It's a lot of info but you'll love it, I think?

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🌟 What I'm looking for: 🌟

- Partners that is down for heavy topics (sa, sh, mental health etc).

- Detailed or moderately detailed writing. Preferably 1+ paragraphs, literate. (4-5 sentences per paragraphs).

- NSFW (like gore, bleeding, jokes or messages, violence. NO lewd).

- PST, MST, CST, EST Timezones only.

- Flexible with characters and can adapt.

- Commitment (as in, don't just randomly ghost me or drop the rp 4 paragraphs in).

- GOOD at keeping pacing, conversation, and communication.

- Friendship, yes?

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🎁 Tropes / Genres that I can do but not limited 🎁

- Enemies to Lovers / Lovers to Enemies / Lovers AND Enemies / Enemies and Rivalry - One sided Love / One sided admiration - Hitman x Target / Hitman x Hitman / Hitman x Rivalry / anything x hitman or target - Undercover - Learning to Love Again / Closed off x Dosent understand personal space - Sunshine x Grumpy / Sunshine x Brat / Grump x Grump - Popular x Popular / Popular x Loser / Loser x Loser Bully x Loser / Bully x Bully - Wolf in sheep clothing x Oblivious / Unrequited love x Oblivious / anything x oblivious - Hunter x Hunted / Hunter x Hunter - Hero x Hero / Hero x Villain / Villain x Civilian / Hero x Civilian - Darker Themes - Arranged Marriage - Royal x Royal / Royal x Knight / Commoner x Knight / Commoner x Royal - Yandere - Black flag / red flag - OC AU - Red String - Forced proximity - Drunk confession - Slow Burn - Unrequited Love - "I hate you x I like you!" - Sadist x Sadist / Masochist x Sadist - Crybaby x Emotionless / Crybaby x Crybaby / - Lacks empathy x empath I have more but this feels enough for now

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Info

- I'm flexible and can do anything you want with plot, characters, etc. - word is kachow

- I'm in school and working. My time in the morning will be busy / inconsistent. Nights will be when I am most free.

- I'll give you a heads-up if I become too busy or will be unavailable for a while. No, this isn't ghosting.

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Interested?

DM Me! (optional: dm me plots you've been craving to do)

Hello, I've never had a partner before with strangers (only ever done them with friends).

I love story building, talking OOC, discussing plot details, and talking about our OCs!

I write based on the response, scene, and dynamic, so it can range from one to four paragraphs.

I have a few years of experience on RP but I would say i'm rusty right now.

It would be great if we can become friends since that'll be easier and smoother!

I prefer 3rd person so if you could also do the same, that would be great.

My preference:

Hurt no comfort, hurt and comfort, dystopian apocalypse, dystopian hierarchy, dystopian, angst, action/adventure, fantasy, abduction, yandere x yandere, yandere x oblivious, enemies to lovers, enemies AND lovers, lovers to enemies, dark, unrequited, one sided love, romance, slow build, tension, LGBTQ, Vampire, wild west, empire, noble x royal, rich x poor, slowburn.

(I really like angst and character trauma if you couldn't tell).

My daytime schedule is usually busy since I work and go to school; however, I do try to make time (I'll give you a heads up). I'm most active at night. Preferably, I would love it if you're in PST, MST, or CST.

slowburn and character build up is important to me (unless the story starts with them already liking each other or one sided).

If you're interested, please let me know!

I'm looking for long-term partners, so please no ghosting. Just let me know if you're not committed and want to stop.