Feeling discouraged
So as the title suggests I am feeling discouraged because as of today I am 39 weeks and 4 days pregnant and have tried everything (except castor oil) to induce labor. This is my second pregnancy and I had to have a C-section with my first due to babies position. Since it was no fault of my own and my body did well progressing and these deliveries will be two years apart my OB is on board with me trying to TOLAC.
The reason I’m discouraged though since my baby is measuring on the bigger side (90th percentile) she really only will let me go to 40 weeks and then wants to do a repeat cesarean. I am obviously going to listen to my OBs advice and have on scheduled for 40 weeks and 1 day but I can’t help but feel defeated IF I have a repeat C-section.
My “selfish” reasoning is I have my toddler and I know recovery can be a bit harder after major surgery, especially the weight restrictions. I don’t have a lot of support. My husband works for family (you’d think they’d offer him some bonus or paid leave WHEN THEYVE BEEN ON VACATION for having a baby, but this is another rant for another day) so he doesn’t have any sort of paternity leave. Last pregnancy he got 1 week off unpaid and then ban back at work. Last time was hard, but I know this time is different since I have to meet the needs of a toddler and a NB. I don’t have a lot of family support on my side, and his side will help me but let’s be honest I don’t want to be overwhelmed day in and out with visitors especially when breastfeeding/recovering.
So my ask is: if you have some crazy advice for how to get the ball rolling on labor, please share OR if I just need to accept baby may not come and how to navigate these feelings of failure after this C-section. Sorry this is a dump of my feelings. I FINALLY am on maternity leave!!! My last shift was this morning so now I have DAYS before my C-section to either get this baby out or cry and accept my fate. Thank you in advance ❤️