u/DaniPizzi_

I think something is after me

I'm not sure where to start. Since I was little I always had some strange moments where it felt like it wasn't me whom was in control of my body. I would have some random moments where I'd just take a hammer and smash a frog out of no where, then snap back to reality and feel really bad to the point of crying, some other times I would stop doing whatever I was doing, grab a piece of paper and start writing in some strange made up language just to find out later on my life that some of those "words" meant something, sometimes related to demonic things like the word "devil" written in chinese characters (keep in mind that I was around four y.o. and that I'm not Chinese nor I have Chinese family members or friends).

Another thing is that I often experience paranormal activities such as things moving around or being thrown. Sometimes my bed starts shaking out of nowhere and it happened that I heard strange voices. Thing is, people around me also see and hear what I experience when they're with me so I'm sure I'm not hallucinating.

I also have strange dreams about something (a light) chasing me and killing all my loved ones, saying I can't escape. That day my mother woke up screaming because she said she had a nightmare in which someone or something was kidnapping me and when she jolted up to check on me something pushed her back down and she couldn't get up, feeling like she was being strangled.

In another one I was stuck in some hell-like place and a ginormous demon was torturing me, saying that I shouldn't have come back. He eventually decided to let me go but as a punishment he threw me on the ground breaking both of my legs. When I woke up I couldn't walk for a week from the pain.

In the most recent one I was in my bed and I had something above me that resembled a screen showing me different numbers and letters. When I finally reached it it showed me a name (Abezethibou) that I've never heard before and some numbers that I honestly can't remember but an unknown voice told me to never forget this informations.

This one isn't a dream but I sometimes wake up with someone laying on me and caressing my head gently and whispering kind gibberish (the voice is the same from the first dream and it kind of sounds like a woman I think?)

Last thing that is worth mentioning is that I often have dreams about the future and it is always pretty accurate. I have a lot of deja-vu and strange moments where if I genuinely believe in something it happens. It also happens that I wake up from strange dreams with bruises and scars and I'm always sick in some way.

Please I need an honest explanation and answer before I have no one to talk with about it, I'm not knowledgeable enough about this stuff and I feel like I'm going crazy if I don't know the meaning of this.

I think something is after me.

I'm not sure where to start. Since I was little I always had some strange moments where it felt like it wasn't me whom was in control of my body. I would have some random moments where I'd just take a hammer and smash a frog out of no where, then snap back to reality and feel really bad to the point of crying, some other times I would stop doing whatever I was doing, grab a piece of paper and start writing in some strange made up language just to find out later on my life that some of those "words" meant something, sometimes related to demonic things like the word "devil" written in chinese characters (keep in mind that I was around four y.o. and that I'm not Chinese nor I have Chinese family members or friends).

Another thing is that I often experience paranormal activities such as things moving around or being thrown. Sometimes my bed starts shaking out of nowhere and it happened that I heard strange voices. Thing is, people around me also see and hear what I experience when they're with me so I'm sure I'm not hallucinating.

I also have strange dreams about something (a light) chasing me and killing all my loved ones, saying I can't escape. That day my mother woke up screaming because she said she had a nightmare in which someone or something was kidnapping me and when she jolted up to check on me something pushed her back down and she couldn't get up, feeling like she was being strangled.

In another one I was stuck in some hell-like place and a ginormous demon was torturing me, saying that I shouldn't have come back. He eventually decided to let me go but as a punishment he threw me on the ground breaking both of my legs. When I woke up I couldn't walk for a week from the pain.

In the most recent one I was in my bed and I had something above me that resembled a screen showing me different numbers and letters. When I finally reached it it showed me a name (Abezethibou) that I've never heard before and some numbers that I honestly can't remember but an unknown voice told me to never forget this informations.

This one isn't a dream but I sometimes wake up with someone laying on me and caressing my head gently and whispering kind gibberish (the voice is the same from the first dream and it kind of sounds like a woman I think?)

Last thing that is worth mentioning is that I often have dreams about the future and it is always pretty accurate. I have a lot of deja-vu and strange moments where if I genuinely believe in something it happens. It also happens that I wake up from strange dreams with bruises and scars and I'm always sick in some way.

Please I need an honest explanation and answer before I have no one to talk with about it, I'm not knowledgeable enough about this stuff and I feel like I'm going crazy if I don't know the meaning of this.

Da circa un annetto lavoro in un ristorante ma solo quando mi chiama, nell'ultimo mese ho lavorato molto di più di quanto facevo di solito. Tra poco non avranno nessun cameriere oltre me visto che un ragazzo abbandona ma io francamente non me la sento di sentire tutto il peso sulle mie spalle e vorrei anche godermi leggermente l'estate. Come faccio a dimettermi? mi dispiace da una parte lasciarli e sapere che non hanno nessun altro, ma non me la sento più di lavorare per loro.