u/Daniel_The_Thinker

I refuse to believe that I have somehow gotten so bad that I deserve to be in Bronze after managing to stay in Silver for most of the season.

Now it feels like lower I drop, the harder it is to win. Nobody listens, I feel like I physically cannot do the whole "1V9" mentality because I simply don't have the damage to kill anyone most of the time.

At this point I'm genuinely considering just deleting the game.

I main morg and play Karma when Morg is banned.

I am working on figuring out what I'm doing wrong, one possible area is that I rarely change up my build from Liandry's -> boots -> Zhonyas -> Rylai's -> Imperial Mandate.

I think I'm pretty decent at roaming and keeping up vision especially before objectives.

I also have a habit of overextending but I'm working on that.

I know being a one trick is not great but its low Elo so I don't think its that bad?

It is very well known that for a variety reasons, soldiers and combat veterans are at-risk groups for self-harm and suicide, nearly double the rate of non-veterans.

But something I don't see talked about often is passive suicidality while still at war. How do you distinguish between the risk-taking behaviors of someone acting with courage or discipline vs the risk-taking behavior of someone numb to the idea of death?

What, if any, actions are taken when a soldier is no longer as afraid of death or injury as they should be?

I would not be surprised if across the history of warfare this has not played a role in combatants performing actions that seem brave or insane to those around them, or volunteering for roles with disproportionately high risk (Someone has to be the first man on the wall and odds are he's not going to make it off it). I'd also not be surprised if such behavior was encouraged or seen as a good thing rather than psychological disorder.