u/Dazzling_Tourist_531

35m with GAD, PTSD, and Treatment Resistant MDD. I've been depressed since I was a child, been in and out of therapy, and tried so many meds I can't count.

I have a Medicare Advantage plan and Spravato, TMS, and ECT will be too expensive right now, so she put me on Auvelity and she was hopeful about it because I'm "difficult to treat". I've been on Buproprion 150 XL for 3 years, so we just switched it.

I had my follow up with her and I've been on Auvelity for about 3 weeks. I put on a happy face and told her I'm feeling a little better, when in reality my moods have been all over the place, I'm emotional and my passive SI has increased.

But the difficult to treat comment hurt, so I lied.

​I’m struggling to put this into words, but I can’t shake the feeling that something is wrong with my 6-year-old orange boy. I’ve spoken to my wife and my vet, but I feel like I’m going in circles.

​Background:

He was overweight for a few years due to a living situation where we had to free-feed around other cats. Since moving recently, I’ve successfully gotten him down to a healthy weight. He has always been a "velcro cat," but over the last few months, his clinginess has reached an intense new level.

​Medical History:

\-​The Incident: About a month ago, he had an episode of vomiting and bloody diarrhea.

\-​Vet Visit: My vet (whom I’ve trusted for two years) did a full physical, blood work-up, and two-view X-rays.

​Results: Everything came back normal. The vet suggested his previous wet food (Sheba Gravy Indulgence) might have been too rich.

\-​Current Status: We switched him to Weruva and used probiotics. The stomach issues have cleared up completely. He is eating well, playing with his 3-year-old tuxedo brother, and still gets the 3 AM zoomies. He's eating fine, loves to drink from his water fountain, no issues voiding.

​The Conflict:

Even though the physical symptoms are gone, my gut is telling me something is still "off." I am currently going through a very difficult time with my own mental health, and my wife believes I am just projecting my anxiety onto the cat.

​I love my vet, but I can’t shake this dread.

​Am I overreacting?

Has anyone else had a "feeling" that turned out to be right despite a clear work-up?

​How do I seek a second opinion? I don't want to offend my current vet or seem like a "difficult" client, but I feel like I need another set of eyes to be sure. How do I request his records to take elsewhere without burning a bridge?

Sometimes my wife doesn't pay attention when it comes to the cats safety, or maybe I'm just anxiety driven. She had come in from the store and sat a begonia plant on the table (the plant is going on the balcony that the cats don't have access to) while I was putting groceries away. By the time I turned around my cat was on the table about to take a bite of the leaf, it looks like he may have had some of it in his mouth.

I was able to grab it before he took a bite. Is he gonna be okay? Do I need to take him to the emergency vet?

I was a patient of Dr. Smith's back in the day and ketamine helped me so much. Over the years my depression has gotten worse and my psych provider wants to refer me for Spravato but I have Medicare Advantage and can't afford the treatments.

Are there any companies/providers that are licensed to treat in WV?