u/DeBellJar

Istg I am not a womanl who gets jealous often, but I am just so annoyed at this point whenever things go right for her. Her boyfriend met her through me and my boyfriend, and they have been absolute jerks to both of us. She tries to dominate me all the time, she absolutely doesn't like my wins. She tries to embarrass me by making reels andbwhat not mocking me, and she publicly always makes me look like a woman at her heel. She justifies sayibg that its funny, and she posts them on her spam account. I have gotten to a point where I just absolutely hate her and her mean boyfriend, and keep hoping they are not happy together. Seeing their stories together, laughing together and happy makes me so sick. I will be serving my notice period here till this month ends, and I am so happy that I won't havr to see her again.

The worst part is that i still have affection for her. It hurts me that every time something good happens to me, she just ignores it. I got offered a great jump in my career, and shes the only "friend" who is not happy for me. She didnt even congratulate me. I was so nervous about it and would often ask her will i get it and things like that, so i called her when i got the news cuz i was so excited. She couldn't even say good for u. She just made a sour face. I am so sick of her. I still really like her tho, I hope she gets everything she wants. But also i kinda hope God teaches her humility and kindness

I am sorry for thinking this way, but what i regret the msot is not seeing her red flags first instead of wasting 5 years with a toxic friend

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I am so grateful to God that this phase is over. I will finish my undergrad this month, and join hr next month. I feel I have always been lucky and theres a bit of imposter's syndrome, but after talking to my peers/juniors/seniors who are on their way to cat26, i realised that i did actually work pretty hard since my 2nd year in college for this. I studied almost 10 hours everyday whenever i was home ( which was about 4-5 months total combining my 2nd and 3rd year), and in college it was really tough to not be out all the time, but i somehow managed somewhat by studying during college lectures. There were 2-3 months when I had simply given up, and I know I didnt give my 100%.

But I am afraid this was the maximum I could have done, and if i could go back in time I prolly would not be able to do more. Even with all that, I managed to get HRM at a great college, and I am so grateful for the same.

I feel I want to appreciate my luck a lot, I always get things that work out best for me, even when I haven't given my 100%. I wanted to do Econ very badly but my dad made me take PCM, and I scored 8x% in boards, a huge downfall for a generally high-scoring student ( uptil 10th lol). Thankfully, that year CUET happened and DU stopped being merit based, and I am good in objective papers so I scored 97-100%ile in all subject papers and got a college that although wasn't the one I was desperate for, but it was a college that ultimately suited me better than that would have. I had already joined a decent engineering college by the time DU merit list came out, and as I got a good college my dad supported me in getting out of there and settled in DU.

During CAT, I wanted to take HR but my dad believed that I should prepare for finance, and thats what I majorly prepared for in my interviews. I literally forgot that I had filled the form for hrm along with general mba in this college and was surprised when they asked 'why HR?' in the interview. And although I was so sure I want to be in finance just cuz my dad advised so, I got HRM, which is something that I originally wanted for myself, and makes me so much happier and relieved than I would be otherwise.

So yeah. I am not sure if I am able to write this clearly enough, I am just really grateful that things have always worked out smoothly for me (touchwood). Even when I desperately pray for something, I happen to get something thats even better for me, than what I wanted.