u/Dear-Boot4077

I know i'm asexual like that's not what i'm curious about at all, ive known I have no interest in sex or experience any sexual attraction. However, i've always considered myself alloromantic, and didn't feel like aromantic was a label that really fit me. A few years ago it was rather easy for me to get feelings for somebody, and I had crushes all the time. However, after a really, really rough breakup with someone I thought I was gonna marry, i've found myself more and more disillusioned with romance and the more I try to engage with it the more I leave feeling like it just isn't something I feel anymore. Since the breakup, i've gone on 2 dates and found myself not really feeling much for them. First one I made out with and it left me feeling pretty shitty and just like it wasn't for me, which is crazy cause I mean I do like physical affection. After the second date with said person I told them I wasn't feeling it and we settled on just being friends. Second date I went on I actually kind of liked the dude but not enough to seriously consider dating him. And I tried, I mean I really tried. We kissed and I kind of felt nothing other than just lips on mine. He seemed really into it but I guess I was only kissing him to convince myself I liked it when... eh. We also remained just friends as he's got feelings for someone else I believe. There's a third person i've talked to and called with who I kind of felt feelings for but felt more and more not into them as I realized that 1. I wasn't exactly what they wanted and 2. Long distance was so not gonna work. Plus they're allosexual and have hookups often, and I don't wanna deprive them of their desires. I've been trying to motivate myself by matching with people on hinge and stuff but so far fucking nothing. I can't tell if i'm either depressed about my breakup and not over my ex to the point that anyone who isn't her i'm just not into, or actually discovering my aromanticism. But even with the whole ex thing, even if she wanted to get back together i'm not even sure i'd want to. I'm kind of tired. I feel so disillusioned and demotivated from even entertaining the idea of romance. I don't know. I thought i'd ask for some outsider input from other aroace folk to kind of give me advice on exploring this possible facet of my sexuality and how to come to terms with it, as It kind of bums me out cause being in love and in relationships has previously made me feel really happy, until it didn't.

I know i'm asexual like that's not what i'm curious about at all, ive known I have no interest in sex or experience any sexual attraction. However, i've always considered myself alloromantic, and didn't feel like aromantic was a label that really fit me. A few years ago it was rather easy for me to get feelings for somebody, and I had crushes all the time. However, after a really, really rough breakup with someone I thought I was gonna marry, i've found myself more and more disillusioned with romance and the more I try to engage with it the more I leave feeling like it just isn't something I feel anymore. Since the breakup, i've gone on 2 dates and found myself not really feeling much for them. First one I made out with and it left me feeling pretty shitty and just like it wasn't for me, which is crazy cause I mean I do like physical affection. After the second date with said person I told them I wasn't feeling it and we settled on just being friends. Second date I went on I actually kind of liked the dude but not enough to seriously consider dating him. And I tried, I mean I really tried. We kissed and I kind of felt nothing other than just lips on mine. He seemed really into it but I guess I was only kissing him to convince myself I liked it when... eh. We also remained just friends as he's got feelings for someone else I believe. There's a third person i've talked to and called with who I kind of felt feelings for but felt more and more not into them as I realized that 1. I wasn't exactly what they wanted and 2. Long distance was so not gonna work. Plus they're allosexual and have hookups often, and I don't wanna deprive them of their desires. I've been trying to motivate myself by matching with people on hinge and stuff but so far fucking nothing. I can't tell if i'm either depressed about my breakup and not over my ex to the point that anyone who isn't her i'm just not into, or actually discovering my aromanticism. But even with the whole ex thing, even if she wanted to get back together i'm not even sure i'd want to. I'm kind of tired. I feel so disillusioned and demotivated from even entertaining the idea of romance. I don't know. I thought i'd ask for some outsider input from other aroace folk to kind of give me advice on exploring this possible facet of my sexuality and how to come to terms with it, as It kind of bums me out cause being in love and in relationships has previously made me feel really happy, until it didn't.

I ask this very genuinely, cause a lot of people say it's their magnum opus and their best song, but I guess I just don't really get it that much. I enjoy it, but I don't really feel like it's their best, and it's not really in my personal top 10. I respect everyone's opinions on the song, but i'm genuinely curious as to why people connect with this song so much and consider it their best. Personally I just don't really connect with it much and while I do like it it's not a song I play a lot. For me, their magnum opus would probably be either Vietnam, Year of silence, Knights or Air War. However I am curious as to why a lot do people hold Celestica in such a high way. No hate to celestica btw I do like it i'm just curious as to why people think it's their magnum opus?