Feeling dismissed by gynae appointments over and over again
I’m feeling really demoralised and lost right now. I’m currently 300+ days late for my period and finally went to see a gynae again after avoiding follow ups for a long time because honestly, I was scared of hearing the same answers again.
The gynae I saw today was male, and once again I was told they can’t diagnose me with PCOS because my test results don’t show it. They’re making me go for more tests again to check, but at this point I just feel numb and like nothing can help me anymore.
Instead, everything keeps getting blamed on my weight. I know I gained weight since my last visit, but I’ve also worked hard and lost around 6kg recently. When I told him that, he checked my previous record and basically said I only lost 1kg from the last visit.
I don’t know why but that comment really broke me a bit. I already feel ashamed and frustrated with my body and my health, and hearing that made me feel like none of my effort mattered.
I know weight can affect periods, but I also feel so dismissed and stuck because I still don’t have answers for why this is happening. I’m scared something is wrong, but at the same time I’m exhausted from feeling like every appointment ends the same way.
I'm stuck and even cried in the doctor's room but from that experience alone, all I felt was dismissed.