Am I stupid? But really, be honest
We were on a walk with my bf. I’m 20, tomorrow is my birthday:( he is 22. He was talking about his memories from a camp and how a counselor would come over to his and his friends’ room in the evening and talk. I got surprised and asked “Why would she find it interesting to talk to kids?” Genuinely hand on heart with no ill intentions. It was genuine curiosity. He said it was bc they were telling her stories and that I’m socially limited living in my own bubble, that it’s possible to find smth to talk about with 14-15 year olds. I proceeded to say that I wouldn’t be able to talk to them because we are in different stages of life, max I could do is listen to their stories. This was a longer convo than what I’ve described bc he also started a monologue about my social life. By the end of it I don’t remember clearly what he said, I just repeated and said “Yeah listening to their stories is possible but no more rhan that” and he raised his voice saying “are you even listening” and called me inadequate.
I just stopped, froze and idk I was so shocked because I didn’t understand what did I do wrong. I started crying because I’m on my period as well and now he is calling me names. He left me there on the street and coincidentally, I heard chuch music/choir, so decided to just go sit near rhe church. I was crying for good 15 minutes and then he texted me “I’m returning to my hometown”. We had a long argument over text messages where I’d say that nothing justifies what he said to me and he said it was all because I was ruining his good memories and calling the camp counselor a pedophile which I genuinely was not. He didn’t care about what I meant and just cut me off. I apologized to him for the way my question came off but he refused to accept my apology. Now I’m in ohr favorite restaurant and I ordered his fav meal thinking maybe that could work. Did I really mess up??? I still don’t feel like I did bc I didn’t mean it that way ☹️