u/Deep_Gap_5111

hi, 21f here.. i’ve had emet since i was around 7 years old. i came home today from my boyfriends house, i’ve been gone since monday night. i walked through the door and found out my youngest brother (5 yrs) is sick. been v* and d* apparently for the last few days since i’ve been gone. i am absolutely petrified. i’ve been doing so well and this has put me off. i have to leave the house to work the next 4 days and i’m scared to even leave my room. there are 4 other people in this house besides him and i. nobody else seems to be sick.. this is my worst fear. i feel insane but every time something happens like this my family hide it from me which makes me feel so much worse.. i don’t like to be lied to and i don’t like that they couldn’t care if i get sick. this is going to send me into a spiral. and on top of that my boyfriend is with me at my house so i’m scared for him to even be here. he goes home in the morning but even this brief night together makes me nervous for him. i literally just want to get out of here now. i don’t know what to do.

edit: i can’t go back to my boyfriend’s because he’s about an hour out from my home and i wouldn’t be able to get to my work + i have a cat to take care of. i have nowhere to go and i’m truly terrified to be stuck here until i leave for my boyfriends again in a few days.

hi. i’m a 21F. over the last year i’ve struggled so hard with body image. weight, shape, skin, everything. it drove me into an eating disorder. i’m so messed up. my skin had started getting bad beforehand. afterwards my skin got worse. i’m dealing with acne and all types of skin issues i can’t even get into detail of because it’s so much. everything leaves dark marks after healing, so my face is slowly starting to get covered in marks that won’t fade. i developed a lot of unnecessary hair growth. i don’t feel feminine. i struggled hard for months. it brought me into a deep anxious state and a depression i’ve never felt before. i don’t feel AS badly as i did in the middle of it all, but i’m still depressed about it. i don’t feel like a pretty girl. i’m constantly afraid my boyfriend won’t like me anymore because of it. and during my journey recovering from my eating disorder, my acne has gotten worse and my body is changing again. i feel like my body is messed up. everyday i wake up and wait to see how bad it’s going to get throughout the week.. afraid of what people see. afraid of what i see. has anyone dealt with eating disorders, hormonal issues, acne issues, anything like that that has drove you to a depression. i feel hopeless and i don’t know how to do anything to help it.

when it comes to my skin problems.. i’m positive i can’t use any actives or anything for my acne as i believe my skin barrier is damaged to some degree. yes i’ve seen a dermatologist.. she just wants me to go on hormonal medication that i’m not comfortable with. i feel like this is never going to get better.

Hi, I’m struggling with my thoughts as I am trying to recover. I eat much more now and I’ve stopped being so restrictive. I have had fears of certain foods and certain things in foods.. But currently I have been eating whatever. Should I not indulge in processed foods, sugary foods, high sodium foods, etc? When I thought I was eating the healthiest it just wasn’t working and none of my physical symptoms were even progressing..