u/Defiant-Midnight1482

Im 36 and the pandemic retriggered an old trauma i have towards creepy men. preventing me from working with men i a job. And i feel like im not going to have any career because of this and it makes me feel like looser.

I love great positive men that behave relativly normal and communicate in a clear easy going way, but when it comes to creepy men who behave in an unsetling strange ways. I struggle with processing their behavior and i feel extremly uncomfortable around them. They might have undiagnosed mental disorders like autism or just mildly brain damaged. Because some men are so horrifically creepy even other men are unsettled by them.
And the worst of it all is creepy men starring at me and lurking around silently observing you like your their prey. Unwanted attention.
Its deeply uncomfortable!!

36, no real job, no income, no career, life fucked up by CPTSD, stuck in a home town I hate, no boyfriend, just 2 friends. Terrible family filled with cold greedy people only have my mom left. Nothing is the way I wanted it. The pandemic fucking ruined me!!!!

36 and i hate my life, im extremly frustrated because I cant work in a job with men because the pandemic retriggered bad cptsd.
So im very limited in life job wise and I hate it!!
I dont normally drink, but ive felt a strong need to drink cider since turning 36 last december.
And have had cider 3-4 days since them.
Last time was 9 of march 9 weeks ago.
But fuck everything, i dont have a future because of the fucking trauma, and im tired of it, whats the fucking point of being healthy when your stuck and not advancing. Gonna grab a drink, fuck it all