he broke nc
my bf of 9 months broke up with me two days ago and i was devastated. he refused to give me closure and left me in the dark, discarding me completely. mind you, we’re doing long distance rn bc it’s summer break and we’re in college. he broke up w me over text and refused to call me, absolutely nothing. i felt helpless bc he wouldn’t answer any of my texts or calls, even when i begged him (sigh). i was sososo vulnerable with him and told him i needed to hear him and call him, but i got nothing but a “i don’t want to talk”, “i want to end this with no closure.” it was depressing.
but he just texted me, saying he is ready to talk and explained he was going through a hard time and needed his own space to recollect his thoughts. and then he called me once. I didnt answer. now im thinking he regretted his decision, but idk what to do after experiencing this heartbreak and wanting him back at the same time. I love him, I do. but I’m hurt and I guess I don’t want to “lose” by choosing to rekindle things, bc then I’m excusing his behavior. maybe i also just am dealing with a pride thing. the ball is in my court but I’m unsure of what to do. i really love him, but I’m hurt, and I’m confused. pls help