Im replaying through in NG+, and my main is Carla, she’s a fcking tank, not the point tho. Ive never been to the lifeguard HQ after Clickbait, and I was shocked Amanda was here, then I took a second to actually look at her character design, and I just noticed Amanda has French braids like Carla!! Idk if this is just a coincidence but I thought that was ADORABLE!!! Just two besties with matching braids 🥹
They ran my username through AI. MY FUCKING USERNAME. All cuz they wanted to argue with fallacies and I called them out on it. Im so fucking disgusted rn I feel so sick. This is so disrespectful on SOOOOO many levels, and this isn’t even my art!!!
About Jay’s videos I mean. I normally watch his YS videos at night before I go to bed, and last night is when I noticed they’re all gone. I wanted to cry dude. That’s literally my entire childhood, completely wiped from YouTube. I don’t know how to feel right now.
I’m gonna ramble here, I hope that’s alright.
I honestly don’t remember much of my childhood due to trauma. One of the small comforts I had in 2012 was Yandere Similator. I used to be OBSESSED with this game, hell I still am. This game was like a diamond in the rough to me. I fell in love with the game because honestly? I HEAVILY relate to Ayano. I have BPD, and to me (and a lot of other borderlines I know) resonate with her due to her obsessive nature and emptiness. She’s one of my biggest comfort characters. This GAME was one of my biggest comforts ever. Finding out what the developer did was absolutely hearth wrenching, because that’s when I had to make a choice; drop this game and never look back, or be selfish, for ONCE in my life, and do something for me. I have never supported what he did, but this game means so, so much to me. This game has gotten me through some of the hardest parts of my life. This game means so much to me. How am I supposed to feel? Sad? Angry? Hurt? It literally feels like my childhood is all gone. That series was literally almost all of the last memories I had of my childhood. I literally can’t remember anything about my childhood BESIDES YS. Now those memories are gone too…
What is one to do? Yet again, I feel empty. Incomplete. Like a piece of me is… missing.
I’m sorry, I wanted to be silly for a moment. I miss this series so much already. I literally was JUST watching the ABC killer challenge YESTERDAY AT LUNCH!!! Like what do you mean it’s ALL gone..?
Sorry to get a bit trauma dumpy, this game just means SO SO SOOOO much to me.
I’m still so grateful to the game though. Without the game I never would have found YouTubers like Markiplier, Drippy, and Kubz Scouts, which are YouTubers who make content outside of Yan Sim that I genuinely enjoy. Their commentary always makes me laugh, even when I’m going through shit.
Ok, I think my rant has gone on long enough 😭 to anyone who read this messy essay, thank you, you da bomb 🫶
To everyone who’s also feeling upset, stuck, empty, etc, it’s gonna be okay. We’re strong and we got this. At the end of the day, this game is still… a lost cause, and in the end, it’s for the better. Like Jay said, there’s still a lot of good memories to be made! Ok I think that’s all I wanted to say loll.