u/Diabolicsoul

Just finished off campus show . I found it quite engaging the relationship between the leads was quite good too but it was soooo unrealistic. The guys were exceptionally hot and caring but they are always trying to make decisions for the girl . There you go . Fictional men this and that but they aren’t real . Same reason I don’t enjoy reading Manhwas or mangas or anymore . There hasn’t been a decent romcom where I didn’t find these major red flags in the characters like people we meet on vacation . I realised in real life it’s even worse it’s just one flaw they are showing . So many things we romanticise are just bad . Like when people romanticise ted mosby from how I met your mother . I found him extremely intruding and he kinda was unavailable emotionally all the time . Just sucks that romcoms used to be my favourite genre .

I am taking a year off . So yesterday I decided to check up on my friends. Anyways I talked to like 4-5 people and realised I was just better off not talking to them in the first place . Most of conversations were about them and not me like 90% of the time I was doing the whole listening . I don’t expect people to sympathise with me or anything it’s just if we are talking after months, catching up … nvm .Someone is planning a reunion and oh boy I feel like it’s gonna be the same . All that narcissism . I am tired of hearing the gossips , all the backbiting and negativity. I hate it that once in a while I have this urge to talk to my friends thinking they care about me and stuff but it’s actually worse. Even my best friend only calls me when she is going through something . Yesterday after all that I tried calling her because I was low key having a panic attack and then she didn’t pick up because she was out touristing . I kept remembering that a month ago when I was literally away on a remote island I picked her call on a boat and listened to her for 1-2 hours crying . I opened my eyes and realised maybe the importance I give to people I call my friends is not reciprocated .