u/DiaryofaFairy

I've had people ask for my social media before and I would say I dont have that and they'd be like ah okay. Then proceed to not exchange numbers. Majority of people.

After many years I decided perhaps it really is time.

Phone number is too personal so soon for many. How do I not be seen as weirdo...

I have had multiple brain injuries (not due to psychiatry but life events like a car crash)

I've been using herbal medicine past year. I have had pleasant experiences.

The herbalist I spoke to said it would take over a year for me to make progress.

My headaches have decreased.

But sleep little radical improvement...

I just never wake up feeling great. It's either completely -nothing- or bad cause I underslept.

I've been so tempted to go to psychiatry for answers for sleep.

I can HANDLE the day fine... but I don't look forward to sleep.

I can get to sleep. I can feel sleepy. But there is no reward when I wake up. I fixed all my nutrient deficiencies a while ago.

Even though I know the risks are so real. I use a cpap machine which has only helped me like 10%.

My neurologists also tell me to go to psychiatrist.

I really need to take something and stick to it for many months.

Curious...

Cannabis is trendy.

Passionflower is not for me. Chamomile just puts me to sleep.

Lemon balm was nice but not as nice as CBD.

I just dont know what herbal tradition says.

I also get hot easily and one source claims cannabis is heating long-term idk how true :(.

I nearly blew my head off trying to read 500 pages in 1 week.

It's not impossible! But it was so boring what I was assigned I started screaming lmao.

Idk how to trigger myself to cry.

It's a huge block. It's about resentment. Emotional neglect from my parents and how they completely didn't care about my life beyond the legal requirements and how it set me back in life extremely compared to a huge portion of the population I'm economically, mentally barely here, and my very low level of education (didn't finish high school due to depression).

I'm at the complete bottom of society. It hurts. I am innocent and did nothing to deserve all the pain. Idk how to stop hating my parents.

Would like something relaxing especially or happily mood boosting.

Ideally something fresh(ish) and not a year old but ill take what can get for Tian Ma (gastrodia, Dan shen (red sage), Bai zhi (angelica).

I read kundalini needs a lot of energy preservation. So wonder if can learn to do this instead here and there.

I'm still adjusting.

But I would basically get terrible heat filled head aches if I wasnt living in moderation but chose excess orgasming.

An then say there was a point where instead of releasing it I just instead watch porn for like 4 hours my lower organs around the 2th chakra start aching.

Ive been using magnesium glycinate to keep me calm every single day for past year.

But the moment im off it sadly doesnt permanently change the brain's resilience.

So I would like to use something that actually will help me.

Ive had multiple concussions and have already done all the exercise diet and bloodwork could do.

Dont want to use psychiatric stuff unless have to so would like to go on herbs for half a year at least or something with breaks.