u/Different-Role-3452

That's my list:

1. People are nice to u, even when they hate your guts.

it was a crazy concept for me. Like I knew, the "respect" for let's say boss or some authority was fake, but I never thought it would affect me😭 Like, I have met a lot of people telling me to my face, that they don't like me or insulted me, so... There is no hierarchy between us, just tell me, instead of gossiping and being fake nice. What is stopping u?

2. Doctors, psychologists, therapists and teachers are not some super smart individuals with huge desires to help people. It's usually just individuals with family connection or money to pursue some degree.

"But surgeons are doing open heart surgery", well maybe I'm not talking about them. I mean doctors that will completely piss on your symptoms, while taking the equivalent of 2-3 days of your labour for a 10 minute visit(and don't have qualification or experience with life saving stuff). I remember just getting a vit c prescription(it turned out I have an autoimmune condition, I went to her with my face full on red and broken spider veins, with rash on face, stiffness and I was visible "off"... Yeah, vit c will be enough)

I got once again prescribed with concerta even tho it caused really high hypertension(I am not overweight, it's not that), hair loss and zombie like feeling. Guy knew nothing about non-stimulants or bio-feedback(I still don't know if it's worth trying). Then like, what do u know?

And there are cases for doctors in my country, "working" 30 hours a day in a few different hospitals(not hyperbole, some cases are in court). There are cases of people dying waiting in hospital corridors etc.

I even had an internship in hospital(long term help) as a future psychologist... and they do not care. I can't say the hospital was wrong in itself, but... I won't say anything more, outside that neurotypicals are not only cruel, but pretty lazy, despite what they are saying about ADHD folks(well, I at least can locked in, when it's important).

I remember how I was being treated as an undiagnosed girl, even tho I had good grades and was quiet by the teachers. I remember, how mentally handicapped boy was lashed out and humiliated by a teacher, because older girls made him pull his pants down. I remember how my autistic, anxious driven after the pandemic sister was treated in primary school. I remember gym teavher telling girls they have to show him used tampons as a joke.

3. When u are a girl and especially young and neurodivergent pursuing beauty is "not being vein", but a requirement.

I used to be very self-destructive and depressed as a teenager and pretty much neglected myself as much as I could. I will never forgive how they treated me back then, not even my peers, but straight up adults.

Now even my abusive(yeah, she really was) aunt often tells me to not put so much work and that "I don't need it". The same person that told me I am uglier than my cousin(not her daughter), that her first sentence seeing me as NEWBORN was pointing out my cleft chin and saying I will hate it in the future(I don't care, I like it actually) or that's weird I started liking figure skating, because "it's more for skinnier girls"(she was morbidly obese and I had good BMI for 14 years old)

What can I say, there is no downside to looking better. I like any man's attention and I think, someone complaining about "pretty curse(?)" really didn't have any problems and wants to be victim so badly.