dad, i hate living abroad. im so homesick
i think i made a huge mistake by moving to a new country for my education in my early twenties. in theory, it was a very good idea. i had no particular future in my own country and i had a scholarship abroad. i thought missing the opportunity would be idiotic.
when i first got here i was so optimistic and hopeful. unfortunately this place has only served to make me the unhappiest ive been since i was in foster care, and im pretty resilient so i never saw this level of sadness coming.
i got a scholarship to spain seperate from my current uni, im gonna test my luck there too but if i cant do it for whatever reason i think i’ll just go back to my own country and try to make a living there.
i feel so ungrateful for feeling this way, i owe many people financially just to live here but unfortunately my mental health has gotten so bad over the months. i have one month left here before i go back to my own country for summer break and after that its spain. one month may not sound like a long time but when every day makes you feel more trapped its such a long time.
im doing what im here to do and excelling. im studying and getting solid grades and i will continue to do so but i need advice on how to get through this month.
perhaps im not as resilient as i thought i was. this is not for the weak. please give me some advice