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I’m so sick of this. All the doctors tell me it’s because of anxiety or it’s in my head. I feel like I can’t breathe most of the time.

I just want a quick fix. nicotine did that until it didn’t. I want anti depressants or SSRIs that actually work. Wellbrutin made me way worse.

I know my symptoms arent in my head. And everyone arounds me acts like I’m this monster. Like sometimes I’ll say “did you hear that?” And everyone will start acting like I’m crazy again because I had auditory hallucinations before. Or when I get a little uoset, everuone starts acting like I’m going to have a meltdown. It’s harder for me than it is for them. That’s how it will always be. I don’t know how much longer I can go like this. I ask for medicine because it’s my last chance. theres just something wrong and I want it fixed. I don’t like being like this.

I can barely breathe most of the time. I get so air hungry, and I feel pressure on my chest then I get really tired. Sometimes my chest will feel tight and hurt. This has only happened after sepsis. anyone else feel this way? My vision also gets so weird. like blurry and things will seem too far away or too close. or like things are 2d.

I have a doctor appointment about this tomorrow, but I’m wondering if anyone else is going through something like This

I didn’t expect to make it out of the hospital. I’m 16 years young, but I just wish I died. Dying is so, so easy. painful but easy. living is harder.

I was sa’d several times when I was 8. Then I was sa’d when I was 15. Then I was sa’d again when I was 16.

im finally in a somewhat healthy relationship, and I’m almost 17. but my bf cuddled with me a couple days ago. and he touched my thigh. ever since then, I’ve felt so nauseous. I’ve had sleep paralysis. constant nightmares and waking up in the middle of the night.

when I got home from his house, I felt so, so, so sick. I genuinely thought I was dying. I cried and asked my dad to bring me to the ER. he said no. so I cried more because I was “dying.”

by the way, he just CUDDLED with me. and lately he’s been just sexualizing me ): I play along with it and I act like I enjoy it, so it’s not his fault at all. but it’s starting to turn into all we talk about. he always hangs out with his friends, but he never tries to hangout with me. sometimes he’ll just walk past me in the hallway.

I have no friends. only one online friend. if I break up with him, I have no friends. or anyone. I’m shaking as I write this. Ive been crying a lot lately. And my only friend might be a pedo.

for the past year, I think I’ve had sleep paralysis three times after I was assaulted twice by the same man. I just woke up after having it for the third time. but I don’t know if it is sleep paralysis

first time, I woke up but I couldn’t move or open my eyes. I heard water dripping onto me. the source felt like it was coming from the ceiling. I can open my eyes and then I see a scary demon face looking at me on top of my ceiling.

second time, I can’t open my eyes or move but I feel so many hands touching me inappropriately and it feels good but it hurts SO much and I screaming in my mind for it to stop

third time, I can’t move but a very scary demon face is staring at me and it’s on my wall and I start screaming and then I’m able to move so I start thrashing.